El Significativo

the end of a friendship that i once treasured.

2009-09-05T06:30:00.002+08:00

Back to blog. but this time, its not gonna be a happy post. for this past week, was one of the greatest disappointed and depressed moments of my life. i lost a friend, someone whom i loved and treated as my own flesh and blood. and all because of one thing : Trust.
i think there is no need to explain what happened in here. but i'll just state down what im feeling right now. i feel anger and sadness both at the same time. 6 years, it may not be very long. but these 6 years what this friend of mine have been through, will still remain as the best thing thats ever happened to me. though it may be a great loss, but perhaps, its for a good cause. i admit, i havent been the best of friends. im not someone that anyone could tolerate. everyone has their fair share of imperfection. but in my heart, u have been one of the most trusted people i have ever met. but, can the same be said for u ? i don expect u to trust me like i trusts u, but then again, i don think u trusts me at all. i was overthrown by this loss of a great friend. and i dare say that ur someone that can never be replaced.

people told me, why din i wanna salvage this friendship ? Im sure everyone knows the common term "it takes 2 hands to clap". when someone doesnt accepts u for who u are and doesnt trust u, whats the point of staying ? people can have many friends, for me, i only have 2, now just 1 left. but for u, u have alot of friends there will be there for u, that gives u what u want. so u probly wont understand how i feel now. cause i don get friendly to everyone, i don trust everyone. more than once u made me feel that even without me, its not a big deal to u and this time, u made me feel the same way again. so, without taking it seriously, i don think i had a choice. and for this past week i mourn over the loss of this great friend, hoping to see a sign, hoping to see that we can still carry on, but, i guess everyone gotta move on. i will too, probly not as fast as u. but, this is life. this feeling is like, a piece of flesh that has been cut out from my heart, its even sadder than losing a gf. but at least i know, these 6 years, will remain as the happiest moments we shared and endured. getting to know u, was a pleasure and honor.

So long, my friend. Have a great future ahead of u. maybe we will still say hi when we bump into each other on the streets. well, take care of yourself. Goodbye.

Random thoughts

2009-08-11T00:48:00.003+08:00

Been through many ups and downs this whole week. Baby girl was so sick that her bones and body cant even move properly. Made me worried but she got better after a few days of medication. :))

issue between us, i cant say things are solved. cause obviously, point is still not taken. its ok. not my problem and i dont care anyway. one day u will learn the hard way. :))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TERENCE SOH !

Thanks for the invite. I had a good time that night. Meet us more often lah. So many things to catch up eh. :))

Baby is going back to work after one long week of MC. Hope she will be able to cope better and learn to manage things in a more logical way. We are reaching our 4th month next week. Time passes really fast innit. Well, going for another interview tmr and hope this time it will be successful. Tmr is another day of newspapers and interviews. But better yet, im going to play lan after my interview cause its located at katong. Lol. And if possible, meeting jevonne up ?

Now my mind is clear and set on what i wanna achieve FIRST. Better not rush things this time. Prioritise whats more important. Birthday arriving in 2 months time, i know its still early, but i still don have any plans. Its my 21st, not like its important or anything but i really dunno what should i do...?

Maybe a chalet ? A simple dinner with my close ones ? Or a hotel suite ? Well, will see when the time comes. Just hope by then, things will turn out smoothly whatever the plan is. Now things are gonna get boring on weekends. Daniel has a gf now so i guess he wont be meeting me up that often, its ok, i can understand. All the best bro ! :))

Baby is busy with her work on weekdays and if my interview is successful, so will i. Less time for each other BUT, our love will keep getting stronger after everything we have been through. Baby lost a very good friend, thats really sad. But at least now she will see things more clearly and not always blur blur kana scam. Lol. Next time do or say things use think through it first ok. I will always be here to guide you. With many loves. :))

Im sorry...

2009-06-06T15:27:00.002+08:00

Im sorry everyone. Im sorry to back out last min. I got drunk last night, but i still managed to wake up this morning. Suddenly i totally got no mood. My mood was 100% down. Its not because im tired. Just suddenly mood swing. And knowing that baby slept at 6 am last night, the more i don feel like going. Im really sorry guys. I can understand if u don wanna contact me anymore. I don have any explaination this time. Take care my friend.

Need a gym buddy

2009-06-05T18:13:00.002+08:00

Protein shake : Checked
Fat burner : Checked
Gym buddy : Missing

I need a gym buddy. If not, no effect..... Who wants to gym with me ?? WHO WHO WHO ?????????

2009-05-22T04:01:00.003+08:00

Gotta give back Jilia due to my allergies. )):

My face and body freaking burst out with bumps and rashes. Now i gotta go for facial and treatment. I feel sad for Jilia. Shes still a pup and yet she gotta move around so much. I really wanna keep her. But Baby girl and i thought that maybe we were too impulsive. First, we got no time to take care of her. Though there are others living in my house, but apparently no one is willing to help. Tsk. And moreover, shes still just a pup, so we gotta give her every attention possible, which i wont have time to do that. And i suck at this. Im an impatient ASS. Whenever she poops on the floor or bite the newspaper, i get flared up and spank her. :P

And whenever baby stays over at my place, we dont really have any alone time because all our attention will be on Jilia. Im sorry about her baby. I promise we will get a dog once we are stable enough alright ? ((:

Im sorry Jilia, mummy and i are gonna miss you.

I had dinner at baby's place with her family earlier. I felt so warm-hearted, i felt, so good. Its been sooooooooo long since i had a family dinner. Well, i don have a mother, and my dad...... People that are close to me knows about my r/s with my father so, ya. Just sitting at the table, having a nice home-cooked dinner and talking and laughing at the dinner table. Prolly is nothing for someone who was brought up in a normal family, but to me, i felt so loving. The last time me and my family had dinner together was 10 years old. 11 years already eh.......

Anyway, i am planning to move in with baby as soon as i turn 21. She is more than happy to welcome me and im really glad she agreed. Hope her parents agrees too. Happy to have you by my side darling. Happy happy happy with my life now. ((:

You call yourself a friend ?

2009-05-21T01:17:00.002+08:00

Seriously, really ????
You refer to me as your best friend ? Tell me from the bottom of your heart. I was really kinda disappointed. Your birthday, and i wasnt even invited ?! If anyone thinks that im kickin a big fuss over this, i want you guys to think again, what if someone who regards YOU as their best friend din even invite you to their birthdays ? You may come up with reasons like, you lost your hp or you lost your contacts so you couldnt contact me. HELLOOOOOO..... The people that appeared at your birthday, none of them have my contact number ???? And here i THOUGHT you din celebrate your birthday AT ALL because your chalet was cancelled. Then i read someone's blog post about your birthday celebration, i was real disappointed. All along you refer me as your "best friend". Well, don say such strong words when you dont mean it. I take true friends seriously. Maybe you FORGET to text or call me, then since you can FORGET about me, don refer me as your best friend. Because from my understandings, i definitely wont FORGET to invite my best friends to my birthday celebration, be it big or small. I want my true friends to be by my side when i cut that cake or enjoy my day. When i saw those photos, even friends that are not close to you are there ! And i don even know about this ?! LOLOL !! Really thanks "FRIEND". You have SO many friends around you, so i don think you need another "friend" like me to stick around. You may think that im being over-sensitive, immature, kicking up a big fuss. You might even say "Its not even a celebration loh". But this was what i felt. Because to me, You were a great friend, i treated you like my sister, like family. When both of us needed someone to talk to, we were always there for each other. We basically know everything about each other.

And one last thing, if you don understand why i have to post all these, then you don understand me at all. So long, my "FRIEND"

First Month

2009-05-15T03:12:00.004+08:00

First is always the best, the sweetest, most memorable moments, the happiest and of course, time travels the fastest. Though 15 is the official day, nonetheless we have been together for a month plus now. From adding you in facebook, to chatting with you on msn and talking to you on the phone. Your first kiss, those sweetest moments. We had our fair share of problems and differences. But lets put that all aside now. I have the utmost confidence that we can make things work. My only regret is that i always let my temper gets the best out of me. I always try to change you but now i realise that its those imperfections that makes you perfect.

Today is our first month, sorry i don have any surprises for you my love, how i wish im rich as hell. How i wish im the son of lee xian long. Then i can buy you all the diamonds you want. LOL. =x
But i know there are things money cant buy, you have proven to me how important i am to you. Of course i hope this feeling will last. I honestly havent felt this love for quite sometime from someone. Why you are different is because you prove yourself to me, you've showed me how much you love me. And i will do the same everyday. I really thank you, my baby, my love. I will treasure this moment forever.

I LOVE YOU

Tons of Pictures

2009-05-15T01:50:00.011+08:00

Lost track of time already seriously. Only one week never update and so many things to post about. Well, my darling always says time pass faster when you are happy. How true. lol. Anyway, tons of pictures.

*still got somemore loh*

These pictures were taken after we went swimming on a hot sunny sunday. ((:

Cam-whoring inside the cab. Fucknut faces ! HAHA !!

The sun is shining in while we shot this.

Saturday, Daniel came over jurong to meet me and we went over to edison's house to get his shirt. After that, off to orchard for movies : Star Trek, quite nice actually. At first i thought it would suck. hehe.

Daniel has a super HAWTTTT body now i swear !! How i wish i was in NDU... )):

At edison's place. *Daniel is trying his clothes at the back* :x

Baby with my shirt on.

Friday, Met up Daniel, Alvin and Jeremy in town for dinner then off to zouk. Now i realise clubbing isnt as fun as last time.

Alvin was playing 5-10 and baby took a shot of his t shirt. lol. Look so wrong.

They are happily playing 5-10

I wanna be in the picture alsoooooo.

Phuture's bar table.

Take 2

Take 3... Why getting worse ah ??? -.-

He is so cute when he smiles.

Thursday, went to crystalbelle for ktv session. I swear i will only go there next time. Cheap, service good, no gst and no service charge !! AWESOME !!!!! Only 75 for 4 pax !!

The fucknut face taught by baby.

ok i know it sucks. lol.

I am not concentrating on singing, i just wanna cover my face. haha.

The small and flexible Jevonne

Angry JOJO LAI !

I was hungry before we went in. So, before and after eating. Haha.

yo baby.

butter creamed chicken rice. YUM YUM !

Ya lar ya lar your eyes very big ok ! TSK !

Gold digger ??? No no no, coconut digger !

Duet

Sing halfway also can give the fucknut face. diaozzz

Give together lah. hahahaha.

ok i stop already but baby got addicted. LOL.

Times spent with you, what can i say, the best ever.. I love you baby. ((:

Jurong swimming complex and Arab street

2009-05-08T15:19:00.009+08:00

Went for a swim 2 days ago. Darling was such a dear and waited for me at the swimming complex till i finish. Sorry to always keep you baby. And thanks. I love you sooooo much.

The sun was blazing and i felt guilty cause baby had to sit in the hot sun while i was swimming. It was really so sweet of her. Next time must swim with me ok. :))

Pictures ready, set, go !

so hotttttttttttttt

Jurong swimming complex

After swimming, went to jurong pasar malam to get some snacks. Though the food is cheap and the place is a bit dirty, but its still nice. TAIWAN PIZZA FTW !!

crowded

At night, Arab street for shee sha. Baby thought we wont be going cause i was tired. lol. Of course i wont silly pork. :))

Cam-whore in the bus.

Daniel's specs. haha. suddenly i remembered how i looked like when i was in secondary sch. LOL.

The eternal drgon. lol.

Shee sha is addictive......

Blow blow blow

Edric and Chrishirl joined us too.

So loving. hahahahaha.

PS : I love you

Baby's eyes got tired.

Bun Bun face.

Home sweet home at around 3+. I was super beat that day. But it was fun nonetheless. :))

The cab uncle was super hip. He blast the stereo-system with songs that teenagers like nowadays. And he said he will play different songs depending on the age of his passengers, to make them feel relaxed and comfortable during their trip. So thoughtful.

Thats all folks. Ciao ~~~ :))

Nightmare.....................

2009-05-06T12:44:00.000+08:00

Just woke up from a terrible nightmare. Havent had one so bad in awhile. Hope its not gonna happen in real life. Gosh........................

A Sporty day and 85 market !

2009-05-03T01:18:00.004+08:00

It was a tiring yet fun day for me. Early in the morning woke up for basketball at woodlands with Daniel and his campmates. Only played for awhile and the scotching sun almost melted me. Its been so long since i felt this heat.
Went back to my apartment for a quick wash-up after that and off to Alvin's condo for swimming.

After all that work-out, off to one of my favourite places for dinner, 85 market. Missed that place so freaking much ! Food there are still awesome. Been its loyal fan since young. :))

Happy and Tired. Haha.

3 hungry wolves.

Hes getting sleepy as well. LOL.

So candid.

I guess there are many loyal supporters besides me.

Daniel the NIGGRO. 'Sup \m/

Sorry for being a grumpy and kiddy boy when im tired baby. Lol. And thanks for everything.

P.S : I Love You

Billy Bombers

2009-05-03T00:52:00.005+08:00

These pictures were taken quite some time when baby and i went for movies and dinner at Billy Bombers. Food there are EXPENSIVE ! But i think the portion is worth the price fo'sure. Bloated.... Haha.

Watched 17 AGAIN. NICEeeeeeee. :D
Zac Afron IS FREAKISHLYYYYY CUTE ! LOLOL !
Not that i sound gay, im sure those who have seen the movie would agree.

Who is this freak with the freaking long hair ?!?!?!?!

Happy Boy ! :D

if only my eyes were this big. Haha.

Where is my food ?!?! Grumpy....

I like this picture. Niceeee

Our food finally arrived. Baby's steak was awesome

You are simply adorable my love.

I enjoyed every moment spent with you. What can i say, i wish i could spend days like this with you everyday. :D

Love is in the air

2009-05-02T22:53:00.002+08:00

Days spent with you are just amazing. I cant express my feelings in just simple words. I hope i hope days like that never ends.

Te Quiero my baby girl

Vain 1

My everyday dose

Void deck of Darling's block

Bored.........

Too bored.....

Its gonna be a fun-filled week. ((:

2009-04-22T04:02:00.001+08:00

BBQ and L4D with Fgf.

And thanks darling for coming over to find me when im sick. =))

I love you !!

Pictures will be up soon. ciao ~~

2009-04-14T21:51:00.004+08:00

MOVIES, DINNER, ZOUK AND PUB.

I ENJOYED EVERY MOMENT SPENT WITH YOU........

EXCEPT FOR THE DRUNK PART................. LOL.

NO MORE ALCHOHOL FOR U I SWEAR !!!!

Darling and her friend marisa

candid shot of nick

and buddy alvin. =D

she is just so vain. haha.

TCC before movie. Super not worth the money !

Watched fast and furious 4.

Quite disappointing.

For those who din catch the first 3 episodes,

u prolly wont be able to get the story.

I tried explaining to darling and she was like HUH ????????? lol.

anyway its not much but VIN DIESEL IS HOTTTTTTT !!!! haha.

thats all. take care everyone. ciaoz~

2009-04-08T05:33:00.004+08:00

Holland V and zouk with silly pork =D

sorry only pictures taken while we were at holland v

cause silly pork was playing around with my lousy phone. lol. =)

2009-04-08T04:53:00.006+08:00

ALVIN AND JASMINE'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION

SENTOSA COVE !!! =D

The birthday girl

took a speed boat and tour around sentosa before the party

nice view =)

nice breeze. nice dude

look at his happy face ! hahaha !

excited

our tour guide

kana snap while taking pics. =x

nice condo !

i asked her to pose for me

the living room of the yacht

the alleyway towards the room

alvins room. shiok.

2009-04-04T05:49:00.002+08:00

Really dunno what is happening recently.

A series of unexpected events.

Am i even fast enough to keep up ?

i don wanna be played anymore.

aint there someone that will treat me seriously ?

i know its still too early to say.

so, im constantly observing.

im really tired of unstable r/s.

i know im still young,

but playing ????

it just isnt my thing.

i rather have someone who really cares,

someone to be there for me when i need.

no more "its ok, hes just another guy"

the word "commitment"

so darn hard to find in people nowadays.

WHERES THE TRUST ?????

seriously, i hope ur serious about me................

2009-04-01T13:20:00.002+08:00

I just wanna get something straight.

IM F**KING PISSED !!

everytime its the same old thing.

nothing has changed since day one !

im really damn fed up already.

only words, no actions.

fuck it. i don care anymore.

do whatever u want,

say whatever u want.

think whatever u like.

its not gonna be the same between us anymore.

im not blaming u,

just that we are not suited for each other.

we think differently,

we act differently

and we have nothing in common.

scold me all u want.

let people think that im the bad guy for all i care.

just a bunch of immature asses.

BYE !

2009-03-28T06:18:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 21ST BIRTHDAY ALVIN LEE !!

partied for 2 days straight.

26th- luxury yacht party !!!

27th- zirca for the fhm GND contest and zouk/phuture.

pictures up soon ya. =) fun fun fun !!!

2009-03-24T07:33:00.002+08:00

after our last conversation that ended everything,
i teared badly so i went to a park near my house area
to get some fresh air.
i kept wondering why,
was it because of me ?
was i too anxious ?
did i do something wrong to deserve this ?
well, some questions are better left un-answered.
i guess these few days will be a good time to spend alone.
no one is gonna ask me out anyway.
i never felt this since my broke up with cherlyn.
but at least now i have gotten stronger,
i read her blog saying that i don understand how u feel.
well, maybe i don.
u wont even let me in ur heart for me to understand.
now i hope time will heal everything.
or maybe for a miracle to happen.
something like u decided to take up the challenge ? lol.
that would have been nice.
but i don think u will anyway.
ur stuck in ur dark world,
i tried to pull u out.
but u refused.
So long my love....

2009-03-24T04:43:00.005+08:00

Everything ends here.
it hurts so much that the pain goes right down my spine.
i could hardly breathe......
but this time, i have to do whats right for us.
well, at least this time no one will think that ur the bad guy.
i am the one that chose to end everything.
i don like it anymore than u did.
but i don think ur really ready for me.
we have too much difference in opinions
and our thinking is too far apart.
the reason why my feelings started to fade u should know.
i am not gonna explain it here.
i changed our fb status is because this time,
i really don wanna turn back.
i have given many chances and time.
but there were no improvements or progress.
u should really think for yourself sometimes.
u gotta let go of the phobia u have in the past.
there were many times i tried to explain to u.
but u just said : "im lidat one"
so in time i cant be bothered anymore.
i only want the best for u.
but u don appreciate.
in my heart, i really wanna scold u
really wanna bang ur head on the wall and ask u to wake up.
but these few weeks i held back.
cause i know u wont listen.
and our conversation everyday just keeps getting lesser and lesser.
u said that talking on the phone is the same as meeting up ?
sorry. i don think its the same.
u cant hug someone on the phone.
u cant show ur sincerity on the phone.
u cant see expressions or feel the emotions on the phone.
its a completely different feeling and yet u said its the same.
that was an answer that i felt very disappointed about.
thats how far apart our opinions are.
i gave u something like a test,
a test to see if u truly wanna save our r/s
i gave u a chance to prove yourself.
and i asked if u wanted to accept the challenge.
at first u did accept.
i was so happy.
cause i know that theres still hope between us
and u are finally willing to do something about it.
but after 5 mins, u told me u hate this feeling and wanna back out.
because u say u know u cant do it.
u havent even tried and yet u gave up.
thats how little ur love is for me.
after only 5 mins u back out ?!?!?!
at least if u try for a few days i still wont feel so disappointed.
everytime when we quarrelled,
u always like to say "i know i can only blame myself"
sometimes admitting fault is not gonna solve any problems.
u see why we ended up like this ?
thats cause u always wanna run away.
u think that after our quarrels the next day we will be fine.
sorry. this is reality. and im a realistic person.
as long as the problem is not solved, we will never be fine.
and so many differences we have in our opinions.
i can only think of one way to settle this.
to end it..................
u may think thats what i want.
but let me tell u. THAT IS THE LAST THING THAT I WANNA DO !!!!!!!
but since u cant change or move on, i don have any other choice.

take care my baby. U will always be my baby...... good bye~

2009-03-23T20:59:00.010+08:00

HARRY'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION ~

SHEE SHA AT ARAB STREET~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR HARRY Q ~~!! =D

"WISH THAT I WILL STRIKE TOTO OR 4D"

Vincent(Mr yan dao), Jensen(Mr ugly)

yan dao is drunk, ugly still alive !! muahaha

2 dumb dumb playing dumb. =x

yes im winning !

nick's "lose already" face

hmm...... now to finish him off......

nick stress, smoke so much. haha.

Nana(harry's gf), JOJO L.O.Y(f.girlfriend)

f.boyfriend, f.girlfriend =)

Jensen, harry, nick, pika

come, give me a kiss BABEYYYY !!!

open ur mouth and lets do the tongue twister !!!

Nana, Harry, Nick, Pika, Jojo and me.

Nana say harry's body too stiff. lol

ya this one better. =)

they are actually trying to imitate the drawing behind them. lol.

Ed-is-old, HarryQ

group picture 1

group picture 2

edison blowing........

and sucking hard !!!

i playing psp, don disturb. =x

Esther, jovi, kai

Vincent, Edison (sagi and libra)

Again i wish Harry a very happy birthday !!

Good luck in whatever u do !! =)

2009-03-21T15:28:00.002+08:00

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2009-03-19T06:33:00.002+08:00

The same things just repeat over and over again.

after 2 months, we are still at square one.

we din go anywhere further.

this one week plus, he din contact or meet u.

SO ?!

things are still the same.

he din contact u only means that ur missing him more.

doesnt mean that my chances go up.

so when he suddenly says he wants u back

and break up with that girl,

u were so shaken and confused ?

selfish is the only word i can use.

anyway im already mentally prepared.

let me know when u found ur answer.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

2009-03-05T05:35:00.002+08:00

We will just remain as what we are now.

If things don work out, its alright.

I wont force it anymore.

If we are meant to be together,

than we will be.

If not,

no point trying to get something that doesnt belong to me.

Slowly, step by step, day by day.

There are more things in life to look forward to.

no need anymore assurence.

I rather live my life with happiness.

Lets hope that destiny can bring us together. =)

2009-03-03T08:01:00.004+08:00

Its 8am now,

and i cant seem to fall asleep.

maybe because i am losing someone so special,

someone whom i can finally love so much in my heart.

I know sometimes my temper gets the better of me.

but why i am always so flared up is because i care.

I don want both of us to have any regrets.

I want whats best for us in the future.

But i guess u really dunno what my intentions are.

all along u think that im nagging at u,

and shut off everything i say.

If its really so hard for u,

i wont force u anymore.

I hate telling people to do things unwillingly.

U still love him, continue loving him.

perhaps he truly is the one for u and im not.

its not that i don wanna wait,

its because i have seen nothing from u so far.

i cant tell if u really are in love with me ?

i cant tell if u really can commit yourself ?

u say that i don trust u,

so far what have u really done to make me do that ?

so far its all just words but no action.

And honestly, the things that im asking for is not

very hard to accomplish.

Things are actually very simple,

but u choose to make it complicated.

Never mind. it doesnt matter anymore.

at least u let me experienced the love

i thought i could never have. Thanks.

U were someone very important to me,

i dunno how long i will take to get over u seriously.

its gonna be harder than my past r/s.

i wanna hear your voice,

i wanna see u so bad,

that i cant even go to sleep without thinking about u.

i pray everyday, and hope things would be fine,

i guess everything was just wishful thinking

Good luck to u,

and Take care..............................

MY LOVE........................ MY BABY................

Fate brought us together, but destiny do us apart......

2009-03-02T01:46:00.006+08:00

a video of what happened when u have friends like us ! haha.

warning : never ever cut ur hair before u go for ur enlistment.

if not u will see the devil side of ur friends. MUAHAHAHA !!

2009-03-02T01:16:00.003+08:00

Daniel Liew Yong hwee !!

i say i will post ur stupid botak pics and here it is !

haha. Its already been almost 2 weeks since he went in.

hope things are really going fine

hope his superiors don aim him lah ! =x

And don worry bro, u still can cut ah yang's hair !! hahahaha.

Finally first book out for him. Shiok right.

sorry i din go fetch u.

but i promise u i will be there on ur next bookout. =)

intended to go clubbing, but weather wasnt good

so stay at his place play mahjong.........

and pls hor !!! ur next book out NO MORE MAHJONG !!!!

we should go out have fun and u must get dead drunk.

standard army guys. LOL !

his head very round very nice ! =)

get ready for ur long waited haircut !

these are the results of what we have done to his hair ! HAHA !

everyone got theirs hands on it ! and honestly, IT LOOKS LIKE SHIT !!

nice hole in the middle. lol.

ur hair lidat can twist somemore. LOL.

well, we sure had fun that day.

everyone having a gathering for him.

chomp pang after that but no pics ah sorry.

there were about 15 of us over there

noisiest and loudest group. lol.

2009-02-24T10:30:00.003+08:00

Currently at nick's house.

Cant seem to fall asleep

Drank some Baileys with them.

Play the stupid poker, damn sway,

kept losing to jojo loh =(

In the end i don wanna play so went to get some rest.

i called baby a number of times when shes asleep,

telling her how much I love her.

and she thought i was drunk. LOL. IM NOT!

I miss danielLYH =(

its been almost a week since he went NS.

Hope hes doing fine inside.

Hes gonna book out this sat,

and i promised i will be there to fetch him. lol.

No pictures for this post.

freaking com broke down on me

so pictures of daniel's haircut will be up as soon as i get it fixed. HAHA.

oh ya, a video as well. hehe. =P

And one last thing i wanna say...................

BABY...................

I MISS YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-17T12:27:00.004+08:00

YOU ARE MY BEAUTIFUL VALENTINE~~

I LOVE YOU BABY~

Baby, i know that we have really been going through alot recently.

we kept arguing about the same thing over and over.

Im sorry that im always the one that started all of it.

but by now u should know me,

im not someone that will keep my feelings.

When i love u, I will say it out loud,

when i don like what u did, i will nag.

These past 2 weeks u really almost make me crazy.

Ur past, just let it go.

need to learn to move forward already.

treasure the things that is in front of u,

and not always look back at the old ones.

Some day u might lose it and even regret it.

The post previously was to let u feel how i felt when i read ur blog.

im sorry for doing that.

Cause i was really disappointed, really heart-broken.

Baby, let us go through every obstacle there is still ahead of us,

and i can assure u that u will not fall as long as im standing by ur side.

Baby, I Love You....

2009-02-17T03:06:00.003+08:00

OH SHIT !!

SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH MY IMAGE UPLOADER !!!!

BABY IS GONNA KILL ME !! ARGHHHH !!

BABY BABY BU YAO SHEN QI OK.

I WILL FIND OUT WHATS THE PROBLEM !!

STUPID BLOGGER !!

Anyway, i spent valentines day with baby this year.

it was really a short one.

I wished i had more time with u.

And yes i mentioned below that its been 2 years since

i really found someone i love,

2 years later, i have finally found her ! =)

I hope we have many more valentines day to come.

Though within 2 weeks, i was hurt many times,

i hope u would give me the strength to carry on,

and also to help u to move on.

Because honestly, when chances slip by,

its really hard to get it back.

Baby, i hope u would remember that.

2009-02-10T13:57:00.007+08:00

Ytd after majong at daniel house, dinner at ajisen ramen.

all damn shag, especially daniel, slept everywhere. lol.

mr peace ^.^v

im super tired and still so vain. haha !

candid shot. daniel keep making fun when taking this pic.

candid shot number 2 : Giovanna

his expression after eating a slice of lemon. LOL !

The 2 cock face again. :P

change pose lah. keep using the same pose buay sian ah ! lol.

u snap me, i snap u back. hehe.

Pictures below taken while we were at daniel house.

All after majong never sleep, gone crazy.

especially these 2 love birds. hahaha.

OEI ! GIO ! UR HAND BLOCKING LAH !

madness kicks up. start to get crazy. lol.

Jia hui : KONG XIN QUAN !

Daniel : I BLOCK !! MUAHAHA !!

OUCH ! U HIT MY HEAD !! >.<

YESSA !! U ORBI GOOD. LOL !

Jia hui: I WANNA TAKE REVENGE !!!!!

Daniel: okok lah. sorry sorry. Will u marry me ? HAHAHAHA.

Jia hui: I than don want leh ! hpmf !! eat my pillow !!

Daniel: don lidat lah. that pillow not urs, its mine lah. lol.

Jia hui: u this basket !! tao yan ni lah !!

Daniel: HAHAHAHA !!

sniff sniff...... he made me cry.... :'(

Daniel: she damn fierce loh. scratch me till lidat. siao zhar bor.

but still i like to disturb her. hahaha.

Why this guy lidat one????? so sad...... :P

Daniel: okok lah. don sad don sad. i sayang u, lets dance ! lol.

Jia hui: =) ok !

The story ends with a happy ending. And they live happily ever after.

HAHAHAHA !!

Camera man : Jensen

Director : Jensen

Producer and scriptwriter : Jensen

Thanks for watching everyone ! =)

Ciao~~

2009-02-10T12:44:00.006+08:00

Met up with daniel and wei lun at cine.

Daniel suggested we go play pool.

So long never play already loh. Rusty hands. lol.

My bro is going in NS soon,

so i wanted to spend more time with him. =)

low angel shot

i missed it. hehe =P

ready anot luh ?! BANG !

i lose till kee siao. -.-"

wei lun at the back "miss....miss....miss..."

The 2 cock face.

the mr ah beng wei lun. LOL

he complained why my face so clear his so blur. HOW I KNOW AH !

Mr daniel liew ~ going ns liao don act shuai lah. LOL !

looks like a big V

i ask him take properly but he kept laughing. zzz. -.-"

pool time !!

no shadow head !

my cute brother daniel liew !

After pool we din know where to go. than as we were chatting,

dunno why we just walked over to far east.

When we reach there i still ask "eh why we walk to here ah ?

got say wanna come here meh ? " LOL.

so we walked awhile loh. After that daniel say go his house.......

MAJONG AGAIN !!! LOL !!

so we took bus back to tamp. All slept on the bus. zZzZzzZz

When we reached tamp, went to feud cafe to play left 4 dead. hehe.

After that gio and her friend jia hui reached.

So went over to mr prata to makan.

After eating off to daniel's house.

Play till morning loh. After that still never sleep.

Play and talk cock till afternoon.

Than jia hui missed her exam timing. haha.

So have to go take mc.

The same day we still go out for dinner. all damn tired.

2009-02-07T07:15:00.002+08:00

For the whole day i just cant stop thinking and wondering,

where exactly do i stand in ur heart ?

I was out with jojo and nick the whole day,

but my mind wasnt with them.

sorry jo for being so moody today.

i know u very seldom see me like this.

I havent had this feeling for almost 2 yrs.

missing someone so badly,

and wishing that she would call or reply.

i held on to my hp the entire day, waiting, waiting.

Even though i know chances are slim,

at least they are better than nothing.

ever since i lost one of the most memorable r/s,

i kept putting up a barrier around me,

in between i may have gone through some r/s,

but none of it i ever put in as much effort as i used to.

All of this was to ensure that im able to find my mrs perfect,

to make sure both parties are committed.

So far i have found none.

But today, should i say i fell for someone i should not ??

To me, this girl is perfect in my eyes,

shes adorable, sweet yet a bit fiesty.

and i just like everything she does or say,

i almost don question her flaws.

I have learnt after so many years to judge a person,

by their reactions, words they speak, way they act blah blah blah.

by first communication u can actually tell whats a character like.

may not be real accurate, but the idea is there.

So i go very much for a girl with character and behavior.

that determines what kinda girl i actually wanna pursue.

And i can say i have found her, but,

too bad there are always obstacles. thats life.

but i don wanna just give up.

it took me years to find this person.

its like looking for a needle in a haystack.

I may still be too young to talk about serious r/s,

but does age determine that for u ? or yourself ?

people always tell me : "aiya u still so young, should go and play"

sorry, i have been there, done that, and i don enjoy it.

whats the point of keep changing different girls ?

to feel that ur wanted ? that ur all-mighty to ur other guy friends ?

thats only on the surface, for show.

to let people think that ur popular.

but what about the passion of love ? the emotions ?

yes not many people thought about that.

and those that have, already found their special someone.

Today for the first time after so so very long,

i thought about so many things,

i felt relieved at one point, but disheartened at the other.

i felt relieved because its been so long since a girl make me feel this way.

im disheartened, because her heart still contains someone else.

i definitely can understand. it happened too sudden.

And though our feelings may be mutual,

perhaps the time is still not right for her.

she makes me wanna know so much about her.

just seeing her brings smile to my face.

she has a smile i wish i could see everyday.

and her bubbly and cheerful character brings joy,

not just to me, but to people around her as well.

I may not be the one u choose in the end,

but still i wanna thank you,

for letting me at least found someone that finally meets my eyes.

for being the one that shines before me.

for letting me recapture that feeling.

i will treasure this feeling, and keep it with me always.

And jo, ur right, one should dare to love or hate,

regardless what stands in front of u.

Im really grateful.

Thank you ~ =)

2009-02-06T09:43:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ~ OK ITS A BIT LATE =P

gambling THROUGHOUT this new year. gosh. win some, lose some.

but overrall it was still fun. =D

never really took any pics this new year so its gonna be just words.

1st day of CNY :

went to grandma's house in the morning, than late afternoon went to jojo's

bai nian. Actually planned to pray my mom but ended up too late temple close. =(

sorry mummy, i will go real soon.

night time, went to annabelle's house to gamble. still not bad, cause got win. hehe.

morning cab home ~ *YAWNS*

2nd day of CNY :

Slept till 4pm +. Than off to terence's house. Every year this day, we will go to his

house, never fail. And of course ! GAMBLE AGAIN ! And this year is the only year

that i gamble so much. Everyone over there super fierce, even kids bet like $6-8.

the largest bet was $50. And there were about 13 people playing. I swear after this

day, i fear the very sight of blackjack.

LOL. Lost about $300+ that night. zzzZzzZ. There goes my angbao money.

In the morning, went to nick's house to sleep.

3rd day :

nothing much, woke up at night than went clubbing with nick and jojo at rebel.

4th day :

Got a craving for basketball. so jio nick daniel they all to my hangout spot when

i was in secondary school, tamp 400+ to play.

Lost my touch, but it was still fun. =)

at night went to jessica yeo jing ting =) house to play majong again.

after the second round about 6+ in the morning i knock out.

And they carried on to play the 3rd round. Gosh......

5th day :

Night time went over to kenny's house, guess what ? MAJONG AGAIN !!

PONG ! CHI ! GANG ! HU AH !!!!!

6th day :

Daniel's house. Every year without fail also. Black jack, majong, in between.

his house is like a mini casino. The money going in and out is unbelievable.

everyone play till damn excited. haha.

And thats not the end of the gambling streak.

7th day :

slept till night time and off to meet jojo. No gambling today. bth already. zzz.

walked from bugis to marina square. Than after Jevonne and her bf came down

to find us and off to katong for L4D !! haha. I love this game. In the morning,

chilled at jojo's house and talked all the way till 1pm.

8th day :

Slept till night time than nick came over to my place to chill.

After awhile, jojo came too. Morning 8am than sleep.

9th day :

Woke up around 1+ than went to tamp to watch movie with nick.

Wedding game. quite a boring show. not very spectacular. lol.

After movie, around 6+ daniel's house again to lao yu sheng. HUAT AH !!.

And as usual, gamble again. majong and blackjack. but play small small only.

Play till next morning, than had a long chat with daniel ah hua, talking about the

past, all that happened during our schooling days. lol. Always fun talking to him.

thanks bro =)

10th day :

slept 4 hrs than went to hougang for k. lol.

last min decision when we were at daniel's place. With jessica yeo jing ting(HAHA)

ah hua, wei lun, daniel and kenny. After singing, to jessica's house for majong.

but after one round everyone too tired to carry on. lol.

daniel and wei lun went home, and ah hua and i slept over. cant sleep loh.

whole morning that cute pig keep disturbing me.

Than she end up never go work also. yes imma pig, than ur mrs pig ! LOL ! =P

Now, early morning nothing to do. no plans also. Sian...... hope i can see that

cute pig later. =)

sorry for the wordy post. Ciaoz ~~

2009-01-29T06:32:00.002+08:00

Too many unexpected things happened at once.
I cant compromise to all of it.
I don wanna get caught, and regret later.
Maybe im afraid, maybe i just don wanna get involved.
I don wanna get into a r/s when i cant afford to.
Everything i pictured is just not there.
And worst of all, everything came too fast.
No more, No more, pls, no more.

2009-01-18T21:07:00.006+08:00

Nothing much to say. not in the mood for words. Just pictures.

Goodbye ~

2009-01-08T01:09:00.003+08:00

XIN WANG CAFE AFTER LAN GAMING !

They should create a zombie using my face. lol.

random pic.

I WANNA SEE THE MENU LAH !!

still don wanna give me the menu =.=

Finally i start school already. not as bad as i thought. The class is quite big though. and first day only got assignment. must do a marketing plan with 1500 words. damn. Need to approach my classmates for advice. Gosh. Wish me luck.

2009-01-08T00:21:00.003+08:00

LEFT 4 DEAD !

This game rocks ! its gameplay, excitement and intensity is really breath-taking.

honestly im hooked to it man. lol. been playing at katong with Miss LAI ON YI and her newly blessed bf NICK. haha. for 2 nights straight play till morning 6am. shag-ness. but it was fun. =)

Definitely a must buy for gamers.

Been chilling out with nick and jojo these past few days and shopping with daniel and group for cny clothes. din buy anything yet though. =/

2009-01-02T05:11:00.002+08:00

SAYONARA 2008 ~
WISHING EVERYONE A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR !
EVERY YEAR SHOULD START WITH A NEW RESOLUTION. AND MINE IS DO WELL IN MY STUDIES. WHATS YOURS ?

ENJOY THE NEW YEAR EVERYONE ! CHEERS ! =)

2008-12-31T02:19:00.008+08:00

Met up with Miss LAI ON YI today ! =)

Walked around at town to look at the wallet i wanted and PS3. After that headed to this

korean restaurant for our dinner. It was really great. food was awesome and we

talked our hearts out. Its been a long time since we had such long conversations.

Enjoyed every moment of it =)

TADA ! OUR FOOD ARRIVED !

2 plates of beef. PS: im not the one craving for it. u who know lah. LOL !

the bbq pan. it was damn hot. food was ready in like 2 mins.

finally still gotta stuff these down after the heavy meal. zzz

US ! Forever zhi lian ! HAHA !

Me, forever trying to act cute.

DON STARE STARE ! HAHA !

She take picture really no skill ! Oops =x

2008-12-29T13:20:00.002+08:00

Hmm. Which one should i get ???? Some opinion guys ???

Im also getting this beauty right here ! lol. No more boring nights. Been wishing i could get my hands on this ever since it was released.

2008-12-28T16:55:00.004+08:00

Merry late christmas everyone ! =)

anyway its the most boring christmas i had. stayed home,

movie marathon. LOL.

26th Dec

Met up with Cecline (LAO LIAN), and Pearlyn and headed to KAPLAN

for my registration. end up i was lucky enough to sign up for the jan intake.

cause initially the closing date for the intake was Nov 20th. but they are

still willing to accept students last min. lol. lucky. starting sch on the 5th of jan.

thats real soon man.

after that headed to PS for our dinner. My fav jap food ! =)

AJITEI restaurant

my eyebrows sucks ! just quit being stubborn and grow back lah !

purposely make this face to cover up my freaking eyebrows =(

After that i headed down to pasir ris park to attend kenny's bbq.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNY !! =)

known him for 4 years ! back in the secondary sch days. lol.

many people attended his bbq, people from wg and my buddies.

And his family of cos. Our 4th bbq this month. So i skipped the eating

and just play cards and take pictures instead.

They wanted a formal portrait. LOL.

My buddies. Friends since sec sch

WO MEN SHI SUPERMAN !!

Kenny's cousin, jessica requested this.

everybody having fun.

Overrall it was still fun. play 21 till everyone go crazy and shout here shout there

lol. i din lose much so its ok. But after playing the cards i was damn freaking tired.

So i cabby back to jurong. WOO !! 30+ bucks for cab fare ! damn. Reached home around 4+.

oh and i'd probably move over to tamp during feb. Cecline agreed on renting her

living room to me. i'll be staying with her bf and her. LOL ! Me and her under one apartment= HAVOC AND DISASTER WILL FALL UPON THE HOUSE ! HAHA !!

Till next time ~~ cao

2008-12-22T23:47:00.003+08:00

Was jogging around a reservior near my house today and i saw this.

its a Asian water moniter lizard. it was lurking near the rocks of the reservior.

i almost got a shock cause it appeared out of nowhere, and i havent seen a lizard

this size ever since i was young. it was about 5-6 feet in length !

while i was jogging i kept turning back to see it was following. LOL

and as i was finishing my jog, saw another one lurking in the bushes. gosh....

2008-12-22T05:28:00.002+08:00

its been a week since i last went to the gym !!!
damn im slacking too much. im gonna have to start a new workout schedule from today onwards. Gosh !! i can feel my body feeling weak already. gotta be ready for muscle aches and time consuming. 1 week of "holiday" is enough.

2008-12-21T09:25:00.004+08:00

GUESS WHO ?!

ok alvin and i got nothing to do at his house so we just go around posing.
im fat i know. no need to comment.

joyce and i =)

my favourite colleage in LANEIGE !! LOUIS !!!

Alvin and i after zouk ( jeremy's birthday)

its really been so long since i last posted. don even know where to start. hmm.

anyway i've just quit my job and going back to school soon. cant wait to start school life. brand new start. =)

ok december is really a busy month. so many people celebrating their birthdays and everyone is in holiday mood. i aint gonna talk much. just some pics.

2008-12-21T09:12:00.003+08:00

RULE #1:People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2: Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?Yup.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl older than you?
that depends. i'd prefer girls older though. more mature

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
if i know thats its impossible for the girl to be with me than i wont. even though its gonna hurt, but one must move on in life.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
migrate to other countries. buy a land, do some investments and start my own business

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?guess not ?
because she will know too many of my secrets to fall in love with me. LOL

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
loving someone is a gift, being loved is a blessing.

7. Do you think you are a good girlfriend/boyfriend? Why?
i dont think so. im more career minded currently to talk about that.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
i would move on. and still hope that we can still remain as best friends. =)

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
not really.

10. What makes you sad?
when people that are close to me gives up on our friendship.

11. Describe the person who has tagged you.
joyce: a very cheerful and sweet buddy of mine.
jojo: im talking to her on msn as im typing this. shes pretty and we share secrets together. i love talking to her.

12. Who are you thinking of now?
i'd prefer not to list them out.

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
having a goal and determination to accomplish things. some friends, maybe, because i dunno if they will be in the future. anyway, i don think they care. haha !!

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
how about rich and married ? lol. because both are important.

15. What is your favourite colour?
SLIVER. colour of class.

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
i wont possibly fall for 2 at once! each heart can only contain one significant person.

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
that depends if the person is worth forgiving

18. Whats the nicest surprise you've ever received?
non so far.

19. Most wanted for now?
Earn more money!

20. What would you do if your best friend and you fall for the same girl/guy?
do it the old fasion way; fair fight. winner take all. no grudges beared =)

5 ppl who's going to do this survey.
1) Jojo LOY
2) Jevonne
3) joyce (maybe ?)
4) Cecline
5) Carina

2008-06-15T04:04:00.003+08:00

Being alone, trying so hard to hide from falling in love, lying over and over again to myself. self consolation is the word. and i've been doing that one too many times. Sometimes just feel so eager to text you saying that 'i miss you', but holding back thinking that its pointless as it dont matter no more. We are on different paths, crossing different roads, and seeing different things in life. You once said that i would make a very good bf but im too some sort ambitious. I do admit that fact, and i really thank you for your honesty. We still are very good friends and i hope it will always stay that way.

Yes, i'll admit the fact that i do crave for someone to love sometimes, but im always looking carefully to who i end up with, because i have been careless too many times. Relationships aint a bother to me, just that i dont think im well prepared to step into one yet. If i cant support myself, how am i even gonna support the one girl that is willing to spend her life with me?

Self consolation is really a big help to me. At least it is able to soothe my anxious heart when a wave just hit pass. And doing it often can even cheer yourself up even for a little, trust me. If u keep thinking that ur sway, then u will be sway for the rest of ur life. Why not put it in better terms and say "luckily its just a minor setback"? Wont you feel better and more relieved? So take it easy and dont lose focus on things that ur really trying hard to achieve. And with the success at the end of the day, u'll be more than satisfied with your accomplishments.

2008-06-14T17:40:00.002+08:00

Suddenly, everything became so empty......

I have been spending too much recently, mostly on transport, food and ciggrettes. This is only the second week of the month and i've almost used up my salary. What am i doing? And im really slacking on my job, took 2 mc this month already cause of sudden illness every morning i wake up. Feel bad for my in charge and thinking why i've slacked so much? Isit because im quite tired of my job? Always doing the same thing, going the same place and nothing new. Yes im not the type of person that will stay in a job for long, i always prefer looking out for something new, trying out different experiences, is that a bad thing actually? Cause one will say u are not stable.

Dont get me wrong, i like my job, its my interest, just that i wanna do something more exciting. I wanna go back to my studies seriously. Dad already gave me half of the fees, the rest i think i'll just continue to save up. Probably by end of this month i should be able to sign up for the course. And seriously i have to STOP taking cab here and there, especially on midnight charges. Its already eaten up half of what i earned. gosh........ And there are more things to save up on. Planning a thailand trip with daniel and the rest should be on the start of August. Now there seems to be this overseas fever going on and its tempting my resistance nerves. I so wanna go on a overseas trip to enjoy and relax myself after a while of work.

I dont plan to stay in Singapore my whole life, after i have start a family, i will definitely migrate to other countries. Dont ask me why. Im sure many people wanna do that too, but to me, this is a strong ambition that i must fulfill one day. Right now, i'll just try to keep my focus on my work, studies and cutting down on my everyday expenses. Its killing me, something deep down is killing me and i cant find the source of it..........

2008-06-09T13:40:00.006+08:00

hi guys im back to blog =)
its my off day today so
taking some time to blog a bit.
Still trying to get use of things at vivo,
and i miss the life at paragon..... =(
Though vivo is very slack lah. HAHA!
People there are not that bad.

First day of work at vivo and
got to know a clarins girl named Cecline AKA lao lian.
(I called her that cause she kept saying i look like lao beng! =.=)
Shes a great person though din know her for long. But we just click. LOL.
last friday went drinking with her and her friends at a pub called M bar.
nice place to drink and chill out.
AND GOSH! IM THE YOUNGEST OVER THERE YET ALL HER FRIENDS THOUGHT MY AGE WAS 25-26!!
Ok its time to use ANTI-AGING PRODUCTS!
I look freakin OLD! And thats a bad thing.
Women are supposed to age faster than men.....

Got to click with all her friends real well though. Nice people =)
And i drink till drunk loh. HAHA.
And the next morning i working morning shift.
Went home around 1+ that night and KO-ed.
luckily managed to get up the next morning.

And yesterday went to hougang plaza K box.
With lao lian and pearlyn, we just love singing.
And it was decided at the very last minute.
Cause i was bored so i texted lao lian asking
if she wanna come out for dinner or something after work.
And so she suggested going K box. LOL. So i just on her.
Singing with them can really soothe my eardrums
their really damn good, so far the best out of so many friends!! ZAI RIGHT?!
and i bloody hell got sore throat sing till KNS! LOL

Anyway we stayed till 2plus and have to leave as they are closing.
so after that it was home sweet home. =)
really enjoyed their company. And now i have to crack my brains
about where to go later. dont wanna waste my off day staying at home.!!

CIAOS PEOPLE~~!

Miss ma big sis~~~

Blogging for the working Jensen

2008-06-02T17:19:00.003+08:00

Jensen says that he is not a pu**y but a Di*k =)

Don't say I never update for you.
Links updated!

2008-06-01T02:59:00.003+08:00

though i may not make a difference
in or out of your life,
im still glad that we were once close.

yes i may have feelings for u,
but all along i maintained my
distance and respected u as
a mutual friend.
i can help to guide u if ur
feeling lost,
i can pick u up when u fall down.
thats what good friends do.

i get really pissed off with
what u said yesterday,
and really disappointed.
some choices u make can
affect people in life.

"sorry" may only be what
u can say,
but sometimes it doesnt
help at all.
to me, or others,
u say sorry perhaps is
to just entertain us
even though u really mean it.
it can be said very easily,
but what friends wanna see
are actions to prove.
if i wasnt a good friend,
i probably would have just fuck off.
what for bother to explain right?

everyone makes mistakes in life,
its whether anot u know how to change it.
when situation comes,
u need to learn to adapt,
to get used to it.
not to ponder around not
knowing what to do.

why i can say this so easily?
thats cause i've been through
what u are facing right now.
i've seen friends come and go,
relationships up and down.
and i can tell u,
what ur facing is not the worst.
its choices u make that decides
how ur life will turn out to be.
like theres a sentence:
'always bear the consequences of what you do'
and i'll add another sentence,
'make sure you are ready when the results are out'
if not u will just crumble.

im not saying i know everything,
im not perfect. no one is.
but why not think this way,
when theres a will, theres a way.
sometimes what u wished isnt what u really want.
there can be some twists and turns in it,
there might be changes.
everything around us will eventually change.
its called 'evolution'.
humans are made to learn, and evolve.
so learn to move on and fight for what u desire.

this world is cruel, reality is cruel.
no one is gonna pity for ur losses.
because everyone have their own things to worry about.
sadness leads to anger, anger leads to hate, and hate leads to revenge.
in every person there are always an angel and a devil,
humans normally cant resist temptations and so,
resulting in crimes and awful things.

i committed mistakes in the past,
some which can never be forgived.
hurt my friends, family.
and so i wanna prove something to them.
to perform well for myself,
maybe thats what they wanted for me all along.
its when u lose something then u start to cherish.
i learnt so much from my friends, my fellow colleages and peers.
these good people are hard to come by,
and if cause of somethings u did and they happened to leave,
u cant get them back. things will be different.

so to everyone who are facing problems,
regardless of friends, families or relationships.
to solve these problems u cant consult anyone but urself.
because u have to face ur own demons,
at the end of the day,
whatever choices u made,
it only benefits u, not anyone else.
LIVE FOR YOURSELF, NOT FOR OTHERS.

2008-05-25T01:12:00.004+08:00

back to update.
was still busy with work,
but besides that, enjoying life! :)
several outings with diferrent cliques.
and everyone of it was enjoyable.
movies with my old schoolmates,
movies again with my beloved colleages,
ktv sessions, drinking sessions.
i simply enjoying working hard and playing hard.

leading my own life, feeling the sweet breeze of freedom.
at the same time, falling for someone that i shouldnt have.
but i shan't talk about that. haha.
BTW, i will be stationed at VIVO CITY TANGS
starting from june onwards.
GOSH im so gonna miss paragon. =(
friends i hope u guys do drop by to visit?
and i shall shower u guys with samples! HAHA!
its 1.20am now and i've got morning shift later.
wake up at 7am! gotta tuck in soon. take care everyone!! =)

some pics of the 3Js at ktv session: JOJO,JENSEN,JEVONNE

2008-05-05T04:09:00.002+08:00

finally getting my off day tomorrow. after 2 weeks of shag-ness at work. haha. and it feels so wrong to go to sleep early so im here blogging. Worked morning shift today, and like always i hung around at paragon after work. haha. Its like i cant bear to leave that place. So i stuck around there till 8 then went off to raffles city to wait for evelyn finish work, which is till 10.30 cause shes working afternoon shift there. Im good right! LOL!

After work we went over to geylang and had our supper, and evelyn's friend from clarins tagged along as well. Her name's Joel. A nice young girl, but look quite mature though shes only 19. HAHA! i keep calling her lao zhar bor. LOL! Ate DIM SUM for supper at MONG KWOK. Food there was alright, i still prefer WAN TOH SEK. Anyways we chatted and chatted for quite some time. Like keep talking non stop. Haha. around 1 plus we all went our separate ways. cause one east and one west. lol. but it was fun hanging out with them though. =) thanks alot girl! More hang out sessions next time alright. And this time its ur turn to wait for me finish work! HAHAHA! kiddin.

sorry no photos for today. next time ba. ciaos~~

2008-04-26T00:55:00.005+08:00

its been ages since i last blogged. ok maybe not many are viewing it already but still gotta keep it alive. sorry everyone. :)
been busy working for the past 2 months. almost cant even keep track of time when im working. it passes so fast can! already 2 freaking months le!
anyway now being in a single life is not that bad. carefree, good friends and colleages. but still feeling lonely as there isnt anyone that i can share my happiness with, no one that can hear my complaints and no one to talk to anymore. yes there are friends around, but sometimes its just different cuz of the things they can understand are limited. do i still miss her? of cause! but a good man always have to learn to let things go when they arent yours.

ok moving on, sometimes the things i do are really stupid, always regret after doing it. and end up feeling guilty. sometimes its just hard to control. im gonna learn this word seriously. am i always emo-ing? yes, 24/7. but i just work to forget everything. and the moment im home things start running in my mind again like a marathon. my dad always tells me to choose my friends carefully. i really appreciate his concern. but sometimes i just prefer to open my heart out a bit. whether they wanna treat me as a friend its beyond my control seriously. these past 2 months have been fun and im really glad of what i have now. just let nature take its course. =)

an EMO sunday out with sister jasmine. shes such a good advisor and listener. =)

KTV sessions with my buds at work. =)

2008-02-24T04:26:00.002+08:00

everyones gotta move on in live.
thats what keeps us growing and
leaning from mistakes and past
experiences.
looking back at what i was back
then and now, is what keeps me
going forward.
million thanks to friends and buddies :)
without them probably everything would
have been terrible.
but friends do come and go
and i do miss those that have gone.
those that were so dearly close yet
out of sudden they just vanish.
do any of them bear grudges of my
past mistakes? perhaps they do.
any stupidity cause im here now
to apologise. not cuz i feel guilty.
is i think i owe u guys one.

now moving on to my career and studies.
i'll be doing what i have always wanted to,
and i think lifes gonna be happier this way.
my loves always there, supporting me.
a million thanks never gonna be enough
to show my appreciation and love for her :)
looking towards wonderful days ahead with her.
thanks and i love u so much my baby!

2008-02-21T15:25:00.002+08:00

i feel so remorseful,
feel like such a lowlife,
and the lousiest bf ever!
why cant i just do the
most basic thing a guy should?
cuz im just tired?
thats the lousiest excuse ever!
i feel so regretful of
what i did this morning.
besides apologising i know
that whatever i do,
i cant make it up to baby.
i can only say how much she
mean to me and how much i
love her.
but i don think thats gonna
help or change anything
that i have done. sigh~~

from now on, i swear to myself
i will become a better man,
be the right kinda bf for her.
im getting a job soon and i
will work hard. i will do
anything in my power to make
sure that our r/s is on the
right track. she make me feel
i can do anything.
she supported me along the way
and for her i wanna prove myelf.
i know i can do it. cuz my love
for her is just so deep that
words cant even explain.

i hope u will forgive me baby :(:(:(:(

2008-02-20T03:05:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 1ST MONTHSARY TO WITH MY BABY JEANNIE! :D

i can only say that this month has been one hell of a roller coaster ride for me and baby. sorry for my hot temper and sensitive-ness. i know i havent been the best bf u had so far, perhaps even the worst. hurhur. but i promise you that once we settle down, things will be much better. and thank u my love for enduring all the hardships with me. thanks for accepting my everything, and thanks for doing so much for me. i know that coming down to jurong is so GOD-DAMN-FAR for u. haha. i really appreciate for all u have done. and i will do my best for u too. and lastly, thanks for showering me with all ur love that no one has ever shown me before. we still have a long and tough journey ahead of us and we will definitely go through it together. I LOVE YOU MY BABY~~ :)

2008-02-17T02:51:00.004+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL~~!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEI ZHEN~~!

some overdue pics. i simply love my baby sweetheart!!

2008-02-06T05:33:00.000+08:00

now super shagged... ytd slept at 3 am den 5.30 have to wake up cuz need to go work. its just a 2 days job replacement cuz terence say that thy are short-handed. so go help out loh. earn some money before CNY also. but its shagged out i tell u! only 2 hrs of sleep and i have to work for 11 hrs! so early morning went down to tanah merah interchange to meet up with daniel and wei zhen. the trip was boring and long. and the morning crowd in the train can suffocate u to death man! but in the end i manage to reach there on time :)

nothing much to do at work. its a warehouse for ROBINSONS and MARKS AND SPENCER. we just go there help to unpack their clothes and stuff and just hang them up. it was bored though, cuz we keep doing the same thing over and over again. but working with them was nonetheless fun :). we super good at eating snake! people smoke break 10 mins we can slack for 30! hahaha~!! almost fell asleep during the whole time at work..... actually we can go off at 5.30pm, but i requested to work OT till 7.30pm loh. i wan money bo bian. after that straight away go home eat dinner den its bed time!

ok its CNY eve today, but still gotta go work half day till 3pm, i don mind as long as can earn money liao. tonight eating dinner with just my dad cuz my uncle is in hospital so my relatives cant come over to my house for reunion dinner. dunno izzit good or bad, cuz i dun really wanna see my relatives. ok i gotta go prepare for work now. ciaoz~~~~~~~~~~

2008-02-04T13:03:00.000+08:00

these few days out with daniel and leon to shop for their CNY clothes. and i have to say see them buying so many stuffs makes me so tempted.... =( but too bad. thy are the ones that have the money. hurhur~~
but of course i did saw things that i like and planning to buy already. too many can!
so i will just put them in my wishlist instead. probably will get them after CNY? or after i start working to save up.

WISHLIST:
1)LV leather wallet($595)
2)ARMANI JEANS buckle belt($265)
3)ARMANI JEANS T-shirt($235)
4)PORTER ahoulder bag($300+)
5)PUMA brown and golden canvas(dunno pricing yet)
6)converse ragged canvas($139)
7)FRED PARRY polo T($149)
8)FOSSIL metallic black watch($153)
9)AGNES B dog tags($95)
10)TOPMAN jerseys($16 each)
11)BLACK LABELS t shirts(ranging from $32.90 to $69.90)
12)REVOLTAGE teal colored T shirt($49.90)
13)MORE SKINNY JEANS BUT ALWAYS CANT FIND THE ONES I LIKE!!
14)NEW URBAN MALE black and red havanas($49.90)

ok i know its too many and the pricings are almost out of my range. thats why i will start saving up. don blame me for having such a long list cuz i REALLY HAVE TOO LIMITED AMOUNT OF CLOTHES! my wardrobe needs my attention!

So in Love with U~~~~

2008-02-04T10:23:00.000+08:00

back again, but i will just blog about what happened these 2 days. the rest of it just kinda having a hard time with the memory thing.
these 2 days really sux for me and my baby miss NEO. cuz quarrel wad... whats the worst thing a couple can have? heard some uncanning rumors about my baby from pple that are too immature to think for anything but themselves. think thats gonna spoil us? HELL NO!! it will just bond us together even tighter then before. baby was so pissed off when she was accused of such things and got realllllyyyyy MADDDDD........ Im sorry baby for having any doubts in you. let those hypocritical assholes say what thy want, but sooner or later i will get back at ya. hope a dog fucking poop on u while its taking a walk. or just maybe someone will push u down the mrt track and run u over. baby and i will go through anything together. BABY, I LOVE YOU~~~

no one can be trusted nowadays, absolutely NO ONE!!! i have so fucking many FAKERS around me. pple trying to act thy are being helpful and friendly but u never how many knives are thy holding behind their backs. that is i have decided to clear myself of those pple. i will still stick to those i can trust, though there is one thing i will definitely have to do to avoid those DAMN MOTHERFUCKERS...... STOP CLUBBING!!! YES NO MORE CLUBBING FOR ME.. unless its with my buddies and my love. (:

ok im out, gotta go meet my darling baby now. GOSH, i miss her so much.. ciaoz~

2008-01-22T10:33:00.000+08:00

now early in the morning i start blogging liao loh. lol. cause my baby now at my house studying so don wanna disturb her so blog abit. :)
ok im now attached to my lovely baby jeannie. shocked right. hurhur. i know its a bit sudden but time will eventually tell everything.
these few days i have been spending some quality time with her and im glad i have been accepted. even though knowing my situations and everything. hope that this would be a stable r/s :)

i haven slept for the whole day can. lol. cause when baby reached home ytd after work, she said that she got the date for her exams schedule wrong, she thought it was on the 24th but when she double checked, it was actually on the 22nd, which is today! then she say cant sleep loh. must study all the way till her exam time. i felt so sorry for her and worried so i told her that i also don wanna sleep, accompany her till she go for her exams. though both of us were really tired by around 6 am but no choice, she gotta study and knowing that she is going through all this, of cuz i cant sleep also. then she called me and said that she wanted to come over to my place to study and later go her school is also nearer, which is SP lah.
i almost fell asleep while waiting for her so quickly gulp up 3 cups of coffee to keep me awake. haha. around 8+ she arrived and seriously speaking, im just so attracted by her eyes. so till now still awake and waiting for time to pass and baby is busy studying and a bit panicking. lol.

ok i gotta go and entertain her a bit. she look so sian liao. so go cheer her up. don worry lah baby. im sure ur able to pull this through. im always here for u my love :). u will always have me by ur side. love u my sweetheart.... ciaoz.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER VIN~!

2008-01-19T19:47:00.000+08:00

on thursday i went to bugis to meet up with jeannie for an interview at FOX. too bad the manager wasnt there so i just filled in the application form and was told to go back on monday. after that went to watch movie: "LE GRAND CHEF". the movie is nice. i enjoy watching shows on cuisine, it just turns on my taste buds :)
after the movie found out that edison was in hospital cuz of his infected foot. was so shocked and worried lah. MY BOSS LEH! wa lau. hope u get well soon bro~~
around 11+pm jeanie and i went over to hougang to meet up with sabbie sis to slack. since she say don feel like going out so go over find her. see i so good right. LOL~
halfway through called up vin cuz i miss him...! then found out that it was his birthday and he is having an advance celebration, steamboat at his house with his family and jojo. so went over to his house downstairs to find him. MISS MY DARLING CAN! HAHA. talked till 3+am den jeannie went home. so we went up to vin's house. i was damn hungry so ate the leftovers of the steamboat. wa lau sabbie sis think i pig loh. throw ALL the food and just cook only den ok lah i eat finish. AIZAI ONE! tsktsk. thx vin for the food, sorry that i finished it up. :P around 7am then go home. tired de loh...... but i had fun with them. :) miss hougang alot cuz last time always hang out there with the rest of seductive.
after i reached home slept till 4+ den wake up go prepare to meet vin, jean and angie to go down NUH to visit edison boss. sorry i was late again guys. reached there around 7+ lidat. saw edison on wheelchair loh. but he like monkey lidat. haha. bth him still can do wheelie on the wheelchair somemore. but im glad to see that he is fine. still dunno when he can be discharged. hope soon. went to the kopitiam over there to eat dinner. he got so many escorts loh. lol. go smoke then around 10+ we left and headed to down with harry and vin to meet up with yifan. jojo smsed me on the way and we secretly planned to not let vin know that jojo is coming cuz she baked a cake for him and wanted to give him a surprise. so sweet right!! awwww~~
then went taka there de 7-11 to buy beer to cheers with vin. sorry i don drink ah bro. but still got cheers lah, with milk tea. hahaha. when jojo arrived and gave vin a surprise we sang birthday song for him~ VIN U OLD LIAO LOH. 22 this yr. LOL.
though there wasnt many of us; just me, yifan harry and jojo but i hope u enjoyed yourself. i really did and missed those times when we hang out almost everyday. now most of the guys are either busy with work or GF so these times are hard to come by and i treasured every moment of it. talked with harry about some stuffs and both of us realised the change in ourselves. everyone have to move on with their life and don regret or look back about the past. and harry my brother, have more self confidence in yourself. ur such a nice guy and i believe u will find someone good. cheer up alright~ :)

around 2am went back to hougang with vin jojo and harry. yifan went to MOS. and harry went home. and i planned to stay at vin's house for the night again. jeannie came down to find me and slacked till 5am den she went back home....
thx vin darling for the hospitality really. and sorry for the troubles too. ur a fren and a person i will never ever forget. and thx jeannie darling for accompanying me these few days. love ya~ :)

2008-01-17T05:12:00.000+08:00

its 5am now and i cant seem to fall asleep...
i wonder whats bothering me.
perhaps so many things happened in such a short time
and i cant keep up? or izzit something else?
i hope im making the right choice
cuz when feelings come it cant really be helped.
i know myself very well, and i hope to be the one.
but just sometimes the reaction and little signs
i get don seem to be a positive one.
i know it takes time
im willing to use that time to get close
and i hope u do too....

i feel like such a jerk
i just dunno how to appreciate what i have
around me.
people that i love and cherish...
they always seems to disappear,
slowly, one by one.
i cant keep count on how many thats left.
its so hurting to see someone thats been
close to u for years just walk away...
i don wan it to happen again.....

2008-01-16T02:51:00.000+08:00

sorry guys im back to blog.
busy and lazy also lah. :X
hmm.. lets start off with last week,
friday went to clementi to meet
up with edison, jean, angie and gorden
then thy had stingray and sotong for dinner
not bad lah the food, but 85 market one still
the BEST! HAHA.
then after that went to west coast CC
cuz edison need to sign some documents.
after that play bowling loh.
so long never play already and i sucked.
hahaha. but had fun lah.

sunday went to sentosa to sun-tan with joyce,
so long never see that girl and miss her can.
actually wanna meet at 10am....
in the end both of us woke up late cuz i slept
at 7am on that day, and that joyce went clubbing lah!
go suntan still can go clubbing.... POWER!
anyways we met up in the afternoon and by the time reached
there was like 2+pm. LOL.
joyce was enjoying her sun-tanning while i just laze around.
cuz i don suntan ah. then waited for her friends to arrive
they came in the evening--5+pm ah. still got sun lah
but so late sia. TSK.
after tanning slacked at KM8,
got trance over there loh. hahaha
shuffle on the sand!!! SHUFFLE IS LOVE LOH! :)
joyce also wanted to learn so teached her some steps lah.
i also not pro ah so cant teach properly. lol.
went home around 10+.

this week on tuesday,
went to town to meet jeannie as she wanted to lend mi her hp
thx alot girl :)
and sorry i was late and made u wait for so long
promised a meal and i will keep it.
after that we went to PS to watch boogeyman 2.
not bad, just very gross loh.
kill pple using sadistic ways.
but the funny thing is that jeannie was so
engrossed and her reactions are damn funny lah.
hahaha. laugh till peng. but it was fun watching movie
with her. next time im here to protect u lah.
don scared. :)
after movie we slacked outside starbucks
chat chat till forget time.
and i missed the last train.......
so went over to sengkang and jeannie
passed mi some money to take cab home.
ok thats 2 meals i owe her. LOL.
sorry girl for causing all these trouble
and thx alot really. :))

ok here are some pics taken when we went bowling that day.

i hope i can be the right one.....

2008-01-10T17:23:00.000+08:00

why everytime when im determined to do something there will always be cock ups?
why cant just for once things things can go well for me?!
im sick of it seriously.
i wanted that job so badly, but i don even have transport fee?!
who the hell came up with that deal?!!!
FUCK THIS WORLD!! FUCK MY LIFE!!

2008-01-10T01:11:00.000+08:00

went for movies with sabbie sis and JK sis on monday
as JK sis got us free tix for it. :)
watched AVP(ALIENS VS PREDATORS)
hmmmm.. not as nice as i expected though.
i'd still prefer the first part which
was shown years ago.
alot of gruesome scenes and sabbie sis
cant really take it. i love it though
hahaha. sorta sadist i know.
everything was fine but the ending
kinda sucked. think they copy resident evil
LOL. RATE IT 3.5/5.
after movie we were just chilling out at
mac cafe. so many things to talk about.
i love talking to them, we can talk for hrs
non-stop and never even realise time was passing
by so fast. i simply love my sisters!! :))
took some candid shots and crazy photos during
night time. we were having so much fun. haha.
thank you sisters for brightening my day~ :))

im looking up the skies wondering...... o.O

TAO YAN LAHHHHH!! HAHA! :P

tsk tsk!! hello baby. LOL!

im not scolding or anything... i swear!!

i just love my sisters!! thx sabbie sis and JK sis! love u all many many. :))

2008-01-07T13:19:00.000+08:00

went to MOS with ed, jean and angie on saturday.
it was a last min decision though.
saw SEDUCTIVE peeps there too
SHUFFLING IS LOVE!!
i just enjoy shuffling
especially with my cliques. :)

2008-01-06T07:42:00.000+08:00

some pics taken while mi and my sister, Sab and JK was hanging out at town few days back
there are still more man. PLENTY more. haha

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2008-01-05T06:02:00.000+08:00

im back :)
been busy with work and stuff
firstly i would like to wish everyone
a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
a new year and i hope its a new start.

did many things and spending many time
with my friends. this whole i was contented
thx everyone for being there.
i really appreciated it. :)

especially thx to my sister sabrina! :)
haha. for customizing my blog
cheers sis~~!

went KBOX
chilling sessions,
movies,
and steamboat.
had so much fun
this new year
but in some ways
guilty as well...

pictures will be uploaded soon
too many liao. haha.
am i a cam-pimp? LOL

Blog Under Construction

2008-01-04T22:19:00.000+08:00

Blog under serious construction ..

*complete.

testing testing...

;)

2007-12-28T19:37:00.000+08:00

im feeling damn moody today
why? cuz im feeling lonely
is that a stupid reason?
well to me its not
try spending a week doing
everything alone and
not talking to anyone
u will know how it feels

im too insignificant to even
have people thinking bout me
"did i do something wrong
to make my friends upset?"
i often ask myself that
and all the "why this? why that?"
i feel like screaming..
i miss my buddies
those whom i know for so many years
those that used to treat me like family

i know, i did some stupid things in the past
that cause them to despise me
thats why i wanna amend my mistakes
to make up to them, to cherish them
am i too late? cuz when i look around,
i seem to be standing alone
why are people given chances but not me?
i mentioned in my post how much i cherish them
then i realised, they are all gone.....

try walking on the streets, alone,
and bump into someone u know
and they will ask "where are u going?"
or "what u doing here?"
i always have to come up with stupid reasons
like "oh, im meeting up my friends"
or "im on my way home"
then have to siam that place already
i just cant lift up my courage and say
"im just walking around alone"
they would maybe just think
"wa he no friends izzit?"
ok i know its stupid lah
but really these kinda thoughts
will run through ur mind loh
i feel so happy when i meet up
my friends once in a while
and would go home smiling
at the end of the day
but most of the times.....
well i will stop lah
enough nonsense from me.

to those reading friends,
im not thinking too much
today i having mood swing ah
so a bit rubbish
i know i will get used to being alone.

CHRISTMAS SEASONS

2007-12-28T03:06:00.000+08:00

hihi. im back. christmas just passed and i can only say its quite bored this year lah.
except on chrstmas eve. went to movie wth seductive and peeps.
had fun with them and i wanna thank them alot.
THANKS LEON FOR THE MOVIE~
THANKS YUNUS FOR LISTENING TO ME~
AND THANKS SAB FOR THE PICS AND VIDEO~ :)
watched national treasure
hmmm. not bad actually, liked the storyline and interesting events.
i rate it 3.5/5 :)

after movie went for supper and slack around a bit
wait for first train loh. but it was fun lah.
really enjoyed myself that day.

JK AND ME

3 PEACE!!!! LOL

2007-12-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

im quite into COSPLAYS recently and so i went to search for some pictures,
seen many incredible and fascinating pictures but i'll just show some of my favorites.
too many later see till eyeballs drop out.
i think cosplays are artistic and interesting.
it can really bring out the imagination and admiration
in people who are interested in animes and comical stuff.
anyways its just a small interest and curiosity of mine lah.
if anyone happens to have any nice pictures on cosplays
can feel free to share it with me. :))

HERES 2 OF MY FAVORITE ANIME SERIES: NARUTO AND BLEACH

THE NARUTO FAMILY

GREEN BEAST OF KONOHA ROCK LEE

I THINK THIS ONE IS CUTE. LITTLE COSPLAY KIDS :)

HATAKE KAKASHI

THE SHARINGAN BROTHERS: UCHIHA ITACHI AND UCHIHA SASUKE

SABAKU NO GAARA=GAARA OF THE DESERT

THE BLEACH FAMILY

ICHIMARU GIN

COSPLAYS EXTRACTED FROM: FINAL FANTASY:ADVENT CHILDREN

CLOUD STRIFE

TIFA LOCKHEART

VINCENT VALENTINE

THESE ARE JUST SOME OF THE PICTURES OF MY LITTLE INTEREST.
THOSE FASCINATING OUTFITS AND COSTUMES OF DIFFERENT ANIME CHARACTERS.
SO IF ANYONE HAS SOME TO SHARE I WILL BE MORE THAN HAPPY. THANKS. :)

2007-12-19T02:21:00.000+08:00

ok im back to blog. been quite busy and lazy also. hehe.
anyways nothing to blog about also. life goes on as usual.
went to mos for ah yang birthday on saturday.
it was damn fun clubbing with them. i just love them. (:
but i feel even more contented at the end of the day.
those who were there know what i mean.
HAHA. PS: ah yang dont sad ok. next time u sure got chance one. tsktsk. (:
if not i let u loh. LOL. jkjk. :P

good friends are to find. and since im so bored now i'll just show some of their faces here.
haha. this shows how much i cherish them ok. (:

A GUY THATS ALWAYS BEEN THERE WHENEVER I NEED HIM.
BUT HIS TOO BUSY NOWADAYS.
HAHA. SUPER FUNNY GUY AND IM PROUD TO HAVE HIM AS MY BRO! (:

MR 'ASK'(AH SIA KIA) WE CALL HIM THAT IS CUZ OF HE IS BORN WITH A SLIVER SPOON
HAHA. ALWAYS LATE..... LIKE ME! THATS WHY WE GET ALONG WELL.
I MISS THOSE TIMES WHEN HE WOULD DRIVE US AROUND FOR DINNER OR SUPPER
AND I ENJOYED TALKING TO HIM. HE ALWAYS HAVE SOLUTIONS TO OUR PROBLEMS
BUT NOW HE IS TOO BUSY WITH HIS GF. THE 2 OF THEM LIKE SUPER GLUE SIAL. LOL.

USED TO BE MY SMOKING KAH KEE. NOW I STAY TOO FAR LAH.
WE HAVE OUR SQUABBLES HERE AND THERE BUT FRIENDS BEAR NO GRUDGES
CHEERS BRO!! (:

XIAO MIGHTY POTATO MARY!! HAHA. ALWAYS THE CENTRE OF
ATTENTION IN OUR GROUP.
AND THE ONLY REASON IS CUZ HE IS EASY TO MAKE FUN OF!
ALWAYS CAUGHT DOING STUPID THINGS.ALWAYS LIKE A KID.
HAHA.BUT WHEN IM WITH HIM I WILL FORGET ALL MY TROUBLES.
HE NEVER FAILS TO MAKE ME LAUGH. TAKE CARE IN NS AND BECOME A MAN PLS!! LOL

I MISS THIS DUDE...! MY BUDDY IS IN NS NOW ):
THOUGH WE DONT MEET UP OFTEN, HE IS ONE DUDE I WILL NEVER FORGET
BEEN THROUGH ALOT WITH HIM. AND I REALLY MISS HIM.. HAHA
NVM I WILL CHOP HIM FIRST WHEN HE BOOKS OUT. HEHE
CANT WAIT TO SEE HOW THIS VAIN POT LOOKS LIKE WITH HIS HEAD SHAVED.LOL

AND I HOPE THIS GOES ON FOREVER..
EACH OF THEM ARE SPECIAL IN THEIR OWN DIFFERENT WAYS.
GLAD TO HAVE U GUYS. THX FOR THE MEMORABLE TIMES. (:

2007-12-13T05:13:00.000+08:00

i just wanna get my life back
i dont need anything special
just what normal humans need.
nothing went well ever since my mum passed away
first it was the mental torture,
then it comes to financial problems,
after that my whole family was wrecked
my uncles and aunt fighting over my mum's inheritance.
my dad started lying to me and blah blah blah~~~
all this shit never ends.
its not that i wanna get involved,
but i just got caught into the situation without even knowing.

i just wanna go back study, get a part time job to go with it. thats it.
i don wan a gf to suffer along with me now
instead i prefer doing things alone.
though now im working things are still going wrong
so i just have to make it right.
people that looked down on me, go ahead. i don give a FUCK.
at least i have the courage to take what life is throwing at me.

a new year is arriving and yet somehow i still feel the same.
a new year normally means a new start,
but to me it just means new challenges, obstacles for me to overcome.
Someday, if possible, i would like to leave this place, to a new world
to create my own path of hopes and dreams.
that is my dream, my ambition.
sometimes to win a game u need to play it SMART, instead of playing HARD.
well, everyone will eventually find out the path they seek to walk.
good luck~

mum, i still miss u dearly. visit me in my dreams once in a while, cuz it will surely brighten up my day.

MILKSHAKE

2007-12-11T00:59:00.000+08:00

went to MOS for milkshake event.
reached there around 10 and saw many people at the queue already.
then went to get my ambassador chop.
then after that me, steph, vin, jojo, JK and yifan went to plush 7-11 to get some drinks
bo bian bridge that side too many people waiting. LOL.
after drinking we walked back. leg is suan de loh. haha.
by the time we went back it was already 12 and it was crowded!! 0.0
main arena is suffocating loh. u can feel the heat just standing along the pathway.
wa KIA SI LANG -_-"
so we stayed at smoove area. smoove was playing trance!!
YEAH!! shuffle loh shuffle loh! (:
shuffle party man!! haha.

party hard, shuffle harder! HAHA its shuffling time! (:

the crowd was so good everyone just stood there instead of shaking.

BOSS!!! SAY CHEESE!

men and women in black :x

as always i try to act cute but ended up failing... haha

the party was not bad overall.
but i was disappointed in some ways
and im gonna club less now. :)
don ask mi why
its for my own sake.
and im starting work soon.
ciaos~

2007-12-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

hihihi. din blog for a week. tired and lazy lah x:
well my weekend was fun oh and let me wish my bro daniel HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!! (:
finally getting closer to adulthood eh. LOL. anytime u wanna go clubbing just tell me bro.
though im quitting clubbing but as long as its ur call everything is ok man! we are love! :)

lets start with friday
it was an outing organized to celebrate daniel's birthday.
around evening time i went down to simpang bedok to meet up with them
its been a long time since i saw those dudes
and im really glad to see them (: they are love loh love loh.
terence, daniel, xiao alvin, wei lun, wei zhen mei, wei jian, jack and ah yang.
they so entertaining as usual. hahaha. always full of crap and thats wad i love about them.
leon met up with u later at bugis.
went there to sing K at a ktv called 'top one'
i also never heard before. hehe. its just opposite mos burger.
the facilities there are good. u can create special lighting effects and create smoke too.
HAHA. everyone was like kept playing with the smoke and creating disco effects
making the room damn smelly. LOL. expected of them lah.
and the service there is good. the waiters are very helpful and friendly (:
i din really sing much though. bad throat nowadays.

sang till 2am and after we walked all the way to cineleisure to catch a movie!!
at first wanna go cathay but close. -_-"
then ah yang kept complaining 'SO FAR, when will reach sia?'
haha. his face expression still remains so cute.
when we reached there was around 3.30am
and the show starts at 4am. so went to play a game of pool till the movie starts.
the movie was called 'GOLDEN COMPASS'
i give it 1.5/5
its a bad show overall ):
everyone ended up sleeping during half of the movie.......
HAHAHA. should have taken pictures of their faces.
and i almost fell asleep too lah so its quite a boring movie.

sorry no pics on that day. we don have the habit ah sorry. hehe

2007-12-03T23:51:00.000+08:00

something is wrong
terribly wrong
i cant really describe
what is going on
but something tells me
that something bad is happening
everything is weird
everyone is weird

a sense of emptiness
im too lost to find out more
somehow i feel..........
non existence

2007-12-01T22:02:00.000+08:00

im broke~~~!!!
supposedly to get my pay yesterday after work
cause its my last day. but my supervisor told me
the boss can only issue my pay next week.......
then while me and my colleagues were heading home,
one of the bouncers said that his pay was also dragged
for like a few weeks. whats worse is that next week
plush wont be opening AT ALL!
SO HOW THE FUCK AM I GONNA GET MY PAY NEXT WEEK?!
apparently we were discussing this issue and the bouncer
said that the boss is obviously facing budget problems
what kind of problems i dont think i can say it out yet
but now the problem is that i can only get my pay in probably 2 week time
zzzzzz.... oh god how am i gonna survive with $0 and 0 cent?
and its not like i din inform them that im quitting.
i did a week earlier and my supervisor said that she will settle my pay this week
forget it... its not as if i havent been in this situation before
anyway since when things have gone smoothly for me
this is just another small obstacle for me to overcome
but i feel bad though cause i promised some of my friends that i will return them
the money i owed them by this week. when i told them my pay was dragged
they werent very happy about it. im really sorry guys. ):

after hearing about those problems, my colleague decided to quit soon
and he is going back to his previous job and he intend to intro me that job too
cause he says imma helpful guy.. haha.. he says everyone was like bossy
cause he is a new guy and im the only friendly one. thanks thanks.. im touched really.. (:
its just not my personality to be bossy.. cause i know how it feels..
ok lah we were gossiping about some of the staff there lah
HAHA.. but we only talking about facts lah..

sorry to my debtors.. i will try to return all the money soon.. hope u guys understand my situation
and give mi some time..

steph jie: thanks alot jie.. raelly appreciate ur care and concern.. u should take care of yourself too
and strife towards ur dreams.. didi is always here to support u.. love ya jie (:

daniel: i miss u lah!! ur birthday is coming and we shall celebrate.. dont get too stress for ur exams ok
study hard and u will do well.. i believe in ur abilities.. good luck bro (:

2007-11-26T04:43:00.000+08:00

i really wanna find someone to talk to
i feel troubled
i feel lonely
it feels like i have lost everyone
imma screw up
work was really stress
im being pushed around everyday
but i cant vent out my frustrations
and theres no one around mi
im tired
my health is failing
im falling apart
i just need to release
release all the stress
i don rmb when was the last time
i really smiled from my heart

why is everyone so far away from mi
why ah why ah?
till now i have been helping others with their problems
but then i realised im the one that needs help
im not saying that im weak
but everyone needs to have people, friends beside
them once in a while right?
no matter how strong u are
no one is perfect
all i wanted was someone to really listen to me
to hear my feelings and cheer mi up
thats all i want
why isnt there anyone that bothered about my absence?
why why?
am i just so insignificant?

im all worn out..............................

2007-11-24T09:08:00.000+08:00

You Are Not Alone

Written and Composed by R. Kelly

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

All alone,
'Why, oh

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away

Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

2007-11-24T07:02:00.000+08:00

i saw what i din wanna see
i felt something burning inside me,
if god wants me to be a part of this game,
den i will admit defeat
cause all i feel is pain.

why ah why ah?
why everything have to turn out this way?
how many more scars do i have to take?

for once in my life i would like to live in honesty,
rather than in misery...

2007-11-23T04:31:00.000+08:00

what a boring day!
its just sleep and sleep
everything is alone
my life is becoming black and white
dullness~

2007-11-20T02:12:00.000+08:00

finally feeling better already
body was feeling so stiff and
weak cuz of sleeping too much i guess
so decided to go for a walk and
breathe some fresh air.
while strolling around the park
beside my house, i spotted a
basketball court :)
so i joined in a game or two
that felt really good
its been a long time
since i played
and i have to say
the time difference really matters
LOL
i tire easily now
play one game need to
sit down and refill oil already
guess im old
or i just recover lah.

after that i sat down
on a bench to recharge
and did some thinking

wondering how my friends
were doing,
BLAH BLAH BLAH~
many other stuff
dont wanna name it out
maybe being alone wasnt
a bad thing after all?
well i still have a long way to find out

i suddenly realised i haven
spoke for a long time OO
i haven talked since last thursday
HAHA
ok that sounds stupid

there is someone i really miss though
that special girl thats kept in my heart.....
although, thats the only place i can keep her.....

2007-11-18T05:59:00.000+08:00

im sick
i feel down
loneliness
but i guess
it will make
me stronger
this way.
i wont whine
or complain
i will accept
is being alone
a good thing?
well i will find out.

as each day goes by,
i just love u more and more
but i know someday
u will eventually leave
i respect, admired and love u
always have,
always will.
i know u have many good friends now
i feel happy for u.
thks again for the wonderful memories
appreciated loves
take care and good luck. :))))))))

2007-11-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

SHIT!
im down fever again
was tossing and turning
this morning and afternoon
so woke up to have something to eat
i thought i was just hungry
and thought that im just
having muscle aches
went back to sleep
and suddenly felt
my chest was burning
and my head was heavy

im in great pain right now
how am i gonna explain myself
for not going to work?
i dont have a hp and i cant walk
this is terrible
i really i dont wanna get fired :(

PLS FUCK OFF FEVER!!
I HAD ENOUGH OF U LAST WEEK!!

2007-11-16T17:32:00.001+08:00

went to bugis ytd with
vanessa to alter my jeans
while waiting for our jeans
we walked around at bugis st
and went to teenage cafe to
have my dinner
steph jie joined us after that

around 8+ we went back
to collect our jeans
and i really think my
legs are thin like hell
especially wearing skinny
well only my legs are thin
throughout my whole body
so not proportionate - -
but im still happy with the jeans lah
finally got it altered :)

edison jio us go movie
and we were running late
so vanessa had to book a cab
and she was really lucky
the cab no. given was 8888
LOL
who would be so lucky?

thats the merz cab we booked: 8888!! HUAT AH!

and thats not all
guess how much
was our cab fare?
$8.80!!!
wth!
all 8s
we should really go buy 4D
confirm dio tao bio uh!
LOL~

ok i know we were like knuckleheads
BUT WHO CAN GET THIS LUCKY
haha

anyways we were late for our movie
and we are still so happy
haha
the movie was called BEOWOLF
not bad i would say
its in CG(computer graphics)
and its done perfectly
better than the ones
i saw in final fantasy
and i love watching CG animation
enjoyed it :)

everything seems well right
well at the end of the day,
i found out that i lost my phone!
i guess it slipped out of my pocket
while im watching movie.
when i went back to the cinema with
steph to find my phone it wasnt there
and my phone was off.......
ok i know im careless and dumb
im already suay and pissed enough
whats worse
took a bus to go home
and i fell asleep all the way
to jurong interchange
and there wasnt any bus back
have to cab back home
GREAT
at this time when im broke
zZzZz
NOW IM BROKE AND PHONE-LESS
was i so tired till so careless?
sigh~

stupidity cant be cured
and im one stupid ass
thats why i dont deserve anything
idiotic morons dont deserve to be loved

2007-11-15T06:38:00.000+08:00

today at work was SLACKINGGGGGGGGGG :x
as expected on Wednesdays
no crowd
no orders
BUT......
to cover all that slackness up
we had to move all the furnitures
in the live room up and down
those furnitures are god damn heavy!!
and i got aches and scratches
all over my hands and body now
shouldnt have done too many push-ups
the day before i went work. - -

anyways
ended early today
and went zouk to find
tin with edison
after that headed MOS for awhile
SO LONG NEVER GO MOS!
LOL
it used to be called
our '2nd home'
TRANCE AHHH
SHUFFLEEEEEE
finally got to shuffle
and to sweat out a bit
left around 4.30 with edison and tin
thx boss for the ride home :)

now im dead tired
good nights everyone *.*

2007-11-13T21:58:00.000+08:00

An jing by Jay Chou

Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
Shui jiao de da ti qin
An Jing de jiu jiu de
Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
Ni mei you she bu de
Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin
Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
Wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai

Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
Bu yao dan xin de tai duo
Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo

Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
Wo ye hui man man zou kai
Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni

2007-11-13T02:15:00.000+08:00

what more can i say?
what more can i do?
ur just walking further and further away
and yet im right here,
waiting for u to turn back
after reading ur blog,
my heart simply broke
though i dunno what really happened,
it was too hard to look
i followed my instincts all the way here
everything ended up back to square 1.
ur just no longer here anymore
i cant even find ur shadow
as selfish as i am,
i still wanna wish u well
wish u luck
hope that he will appreciates u like i do
looking at u turning ur back
and walking away from my sight,
i feel a sharp pain
and its a wound that can never be healed.....

my tears trickled down as i was looking at ur blog
and as i was typing this down.......
take care my love.........

2007-11-11T06:35:00.000+08:00

send me a pic of ur front view next time
dont let pple see ur thick lips :X

this handsome here wants mi
to post his face again
but hes afraid pple might think
that we are gays.
LOL.
it doesnt matter
true friends are
meant to be cherished
dont be shy lah brother~~ :)

2007-11-10T08:07:00.000+08:00

everytime when i see
her blog its depressing.
as each day pass by,
i just feel so insignificant
like im no longer even part
of her world.
that name just keeps appearing
yes im jealous
who wouldnt be?
yes i feel like crap
and who knows?
no one in this world.
but can i do anything
about it other then just watch?

i may not be able to be the man
that she wants mi to be.
i may not be able to treat her
the same way like that guy
but at least i know deep down
in my heart,
i know firmly that i wont stop
loving her.
i would rather hear her scolding
and throwing her temper at mi
than just ignoring my feelings. :(

being thrown around like
a fucking boomerang at work
is already bad enough.
moreover im sick
no choice
i chose to accept this job
so i will have bear it
even if thy pour a pile of
shit over my head.
im not exaggerating
thats just how my
seniors treat me.
i work ma ass off
and THIS?!
i know im new and everything
but as a fellow colleague,
i dont think i deserve
this kind of treatment!

FUCKING HELL!
IM DONE HERE!

2007-11-09T11:40:00.000+08:00

DAMN IT IM SICK! :(
just give me the strength
to last for these 2 days.
after that cant walk i also dont mind uh
but can recover on wed can already.
pls pls.
AND BLOODY HELL DONT KEEP
ASKING ME WHY I NEVER PICK
UP MY PHONE YTD
I DONT REPEAT MYSELF SO MANY
TIMES. I CANT USE MY PHONE WHILE
IM WORKING!!!!! THANKS :)

2007-11-09T05:17:00.000+08:00

end of 2nd day working at plush
what do i think?
hmmmm.
just so-so
but i would just say 1 thing
the seniors there are just
attitude problematics
other then that i still think its fine :)

the first day was damn tiring
busy and messed up
firstly,
it was public holiday eve,
so the crowd was better then usual
secondly,
out of the 5 floor staff we have,
its the first day of work for the 4 of us.
so the results?
1. orders taken randomly and it was confusing.
2. order slips that we gave to the bartender were not attended to
so most of the orders had to be voided.
3. everyone was busy running up and down the club
not knowing what to do.
4. lastly, EVERYONE OF US DIO GAN!

amongst the 4 new guys including me,
3 of them already decided not to work anymore
well as for today,
its just left with me and CJ(my colleague)
it was underage party so its not so tiring.
but at the end of the day
CJ told me he also will be quitting
he said he cant take it
mainly is cuz he has never been through night life.
and he cant take it mentally
by right today should be his last day
but after closing everyone was trying
to psycho him to try out once more.
so he LLST(LAN LAN SUCK THUMB) have to work
but its gonna be his last day tmr.
LOL.
he's a cute fellow
total guai kia lah.
dont club, dont drink and no night life for him.
u really miss out many things in life dude
but i understand so i was always there to help him
apparently he told mi that jobs whereby u have to face
the customer directly just dont suit him.
ALAMAK!
still got this kind of dai ji ah?!
LOL
but anyways i wish u good luck
finding another job outside
it was nice knowing u :)
and dont get stressed up so easily.
CHILL~

so basically after tml night
i'll be working alone
and once again we will be short-handed
sigh~~~

dont worry i wont quit
im starting to like this job actually :)
thanks to those who supported me.

seeing u at work just brightens up my day.
all my fatigue just disappears the moment i lay my eyes on u. :)

2007-11-07T00:48:00.000+08:00

FCUKING PISSED WITH MY MSN!
just my luck
received a virus ytd
and my msn has been
out of control ever since.
F**KING HELL!
spent the whole day at home
trying to clear the virus
tried whatever ways i could
reinstalled msn;
use the virus scanner
tried d/loading the avg but system could not be d/loaded
norton couldnt do shit either.
TSK~
sorry that i keep sending weird stuff.
that thing is auto
i cant control it either.
so pls dont accept anything i send

i really hope u still would care like u used to...
sigh... am i so insignificant to u?

2007-11-06T20:18:00.000+08:00

i dreamed about u last night
or rather had flashbacks....
images of what we did in the past
how happy i was spending every sec with u
how annoying and ignorant i was
we had our ups and downs
but i enjoyed every moment spent with u
how i wish i never woke up from those dreams...

does she know that i still care?
that i still love her?
or am i just a past tense
just another chapter in her book?