everytime when i see
her blog its depressing.
as each day pass by,
i just feel so insignificant
like im no longer even part
of her world.
that name just keeps appearing
yes im jealous
who wouldnt be?
yes i feel like crap
and who knows?
no one in this world.
but can i do anything
about it other then just watch?

i may not be able to be the man
that she wants mi to be.
i may not be able to treat her
the same way like that guy
but at least i know deep down
in my heart,
i know firmly that i wont stop
loving her.
i would rather hear her scolding
and throwing her temper at mi
than just ignoring my feelings. :(

being thrown around like
a fucking boomerang at work
is already bad enough.
moreover im sick
no choice
i chose to accept this job
so i will have bear it
even if thy pour a pile of
shit over my head.
im not exaggerating
thats just how my
seniors treat me.
i work ma ass off
and THIS?!
i know im new and everything
but as a fellow colleague,
i dont think i deserve
this kind of treatment!


FUCKING HELL!
IM DONE HERE!