Everything ends here.
it hurts so much that the pain goes right down my spine.
i could hardly breathe......
but this time, i have to do whats right for us.
well, at least this time no one will think that ur the bad guy.
i am the one that chose to end everything.
i don like it anymore than u did.
but i don think ur really ready for me.
we have too much difference in opinions
and our thinking is too far apart.
the reason why my feelings started to fade u should know.
i am not gonna explain it here.
i changed our fb status is because this time,
i really don wanna turn back.
i have given many chances and time.
but there were no improvements or progress.
u should really think for yourself sometimes.
u gotta let go of the phobia u have in the past.
there were many times i tried to explain to u.
but u just said : "im lidat one"
so in time i cant be bothered anymore.
i only want the best for u.
but u don appreciate.
in my heart, i really wanna scold u
really wanna bang ur head on the wall and ask u to wake up.
but these few weeks i held back.
cause i know u wont listen.
and our conversation everyday just keeps getting lesser and lesser.
u said that talking on the phone is the same as meeting up ?
sorry. i don think its the same.
u cant hug someone on the phone.
u cant show ur sincerity on the phone.
u cant see expressions or feel the emotions on the phone.
its a completely different feeling and yet u said its the same.
that was an answer that i felt very disappointed about.
thats how far apart our opinions are.
i gave u something like a test,
a test to see if u truly wanna save our r/s
i gave u a chance to prove yourself.
and i asked if u wanted to accept the challenge.
at first u did accept.
i was so happy.
cause i know that theres still hope between us
and u are finally willing to do something about it.
but after 5 mins, u told me u hate this feeling and wanna back out.
because u say u know u cant do it.
u havent even tried and yet u gave up.
thats how little ur love is for me.
after only 5 mins u back out ?!?!?!
at least if u try for a few days i still wont feel so disappointed.
everytime when we quarrelled,
u always like to say "i know i can only blame myself"
sometimes admitting fault is not gonna solve any problems.
u see why we ended up like this ?
thats cause u always wanna run away.
u think that after our quarrels the next day we will be fine.
sorry. this is reality. and im a realistic person.
as long as the problem is not solved, we will never be fine.
and so many differences we have in our opinions.
i can only think of one way to settle this.
to end it..................
u may think thats what i want.
but let me tell u. THAT IS THE LAST THING THAT I WANNA DO !!!!!!!
but since u cant change or move on, i don have any other choice.

take care my baby. U will always be my baby...... good bye~