though i may not make a difference
in or out of your life,
im still glad that we were once close.

yes i may have feelings for u,
but all along i maintained my
distance and respected u as
a mutual friend.
i can help to guide u if ur
feeling lost,
i can pick u up when u fall down.
thats what good friends do.

i get really pissed off with
what u said yesterday,
and really disappointed.
some choices u make can
affect people in life.

"sorry" may only be what
u can say,
but sometimes it doesnt
help at all.
to me, or others,
u say sorry perhaps is
to just entertain us
even though u really mean it.
it can be said very easily,
but what friends wanna see
are actions to prove.
if i wasnt a good friend,
i probably would have just fuck off.
what for bother to explain right?

everyone makes mistakes in life,
its whether anot u know how to change it.
when situation comes,
u need to learn to adapt,
to get used to it.
not to ponder around not
knowing what to do.

why i can say this so easily?
thats cause i've been through
what u are facing right now.
i've seen friends come and go,
relationships up and down.
and i can tell u,
what ur facing is not the worst.
its choices u make that decides
how ur life will turn out to be.
like theres a sentence:
'always bear the consequences of what you do'
and i'll add another sentence,
'make sure you are ready when the results are out'
if not u will just crumble.

im not saying i know everything,
im not perfect. no one is.
but why not think this way,
when theres a will, theres a way.
sometimes what u wished isnt what u really want.
there can be some twists and turns in it,
there might be changes.
everything around us will eventually change.
its called 'evolution'.
humans are made to learn, and evolve.
so learn to move on and fight for what u desire.

this world is cruel, reality is cruel.
no one is gonna pity for ur losses.
because everyone have their own things to worry about.
sadness leads to anger, anger leads to hate, and hate leads to revenge.
in every person there are always an angel and a devil,
humans normally cant resist temptations and so,
resulting in crimes and awful things.

i committed mistakes in the past,
some which can never be forgived.
hurt my friends, family.
and so i wanna prove something to them.
to perform well for myself,
maybe thats what they wanted for me all along.
its when u lose something then u start to cherish.
i learnt so much from my friends, my fellow colleages and peers.
these good people are hard to come by,
and if cause of somethings u did and they happened to leave,
u cant get them back. things will be different.

so to everyone who are facing problems,
regardless of friends, families or relationships.
to solve these problems u cant consult anyone but urself.
because u have to face ur own demons,
at the end of the day,
whatever choices u made,
it only benefits u, not anyone else.
LIVE FOR YOURSELF, NOT FOR OTHERS.