the end of a friendship that i once treasured.

Back to blog. but this time, its not gonna be a happy post. for this past week, was one of the greatest disappointed and depressed moments of my life. i lost a friend, someone whom i loved and treated as my own flesh and blood. and all because of one thing : Trust.
i think there is no need to explain what happened in here. but i'll just state down what im feeling right now. i feel anger and sadness both at the same time. 6 years, it may not be very long. but these 6 years what this friend of mine have been through, will still remain as the best thing thats ever happened to me. though it may be a great loss, but perhaps, its for a good cause. i admit, i havent been the best of friends. im not someone that anyone could tolerate. everyone has their fair share of imperfection. but in my heart, u have been one of the most trusted people i have ever met. but, can the same be said for u ? i don expect u to trust me like i trusts u, but then again, i don think u trusts me at all. i was overthrown by this loss of a great friend. and i dare say that ur someone that can never be replaced.

people told me, why din i wanna salvage this friendship ? Im sure everyone knows the common term "it takes 2 hands to clap". when someone doesnt accepts u for who u are and doesnt trust u, whats the point of staying ? people can have many friends, for me, i only have 2, now just 1 left. but for u, u have alot of friends there will be there for u, that gives u what u want. so u probly wont understand how i feel now. cause i don get friendly to everyone, i don trust everyone. more than once u made me feel that even without me, its not a big deal to u and this time, u made me feel the same way again. so, without taking it seriously, i don think i had a choice. and for this past week i mourn over the loss of this great friend, hoping to see a sign, hoping to see that we can still carry on, but, i guess everyone gotta move on. i will too, probly not as fast as u. but, this is life. this feeling is like, a piece of flesh that has been cut out from my heart, its even sadder than losing a gf. but at least i know, these 6 years, will remain as the happiest moments we shared and endured. getting to know u, was a pleasure and honor.

So long, my friend. Have a great future ahead of u. maybe we will still say hi when we bump into each other on the streets. well, take care of yourself. Goodbye.