im feeling damn moody today
why? cuz im feeling lonely
is that a stupid reason?
well to me its not
try spending a week doing
everything alone and
not talking to anyone
u will know how it feels

im too insignificant to even
have people thinking bout me
"did i do something wrong
to make my friends upset?"
i often ask myself that
and all the "why this? why that?"
i feel like screaming..
i miss my buddies
those whom i know for so many years
those that used to treat me like family

i know, i did some stupid things in the past
that cause them to despise me
thats why i wanna amend my mistakes
to make up to them, to cherish them
am i too late? cuz when i look around,
i seem to be standing alone
why are people given chances but not me?
i mentioned in my post how much i cherish them
then i realised, they are all gone.....

try walking on the streets, alone,
and bump into someone u know
and they will ask "where are u going?"
or "what u doing here?"
i always have to come up with stupid reasons
like "oh, im meeting up my friends"
or "im on my way home"
then have to siam that place already
i just cant lift up my courage and say
"im just walking around alone"
they would maybe just think
"wa he no friends izzit?"
ok i know its stupid lah
but really these kinda thoughts
will run through ur mind loh
i feel so happy when i meet up
my friends once in a while
and would go home smiling
at the end of the day
but most of the times.....
well i will stop lah
enough nonsense from me.

to those reading friends,
im not thinking too much
today i having mood swing ah
so a bit rubbish
i know i will get used to being alone.

CHRISTMAS SEASONS

hihi. im back. christmas just passed and i can only say its quite bored this year lah.
except on chrstmas eve. went to movie wth seductive and peeps.
had fun with them and i wanna thank them alot.
THANKS LEON FOR THE MOVIE~
THANKS YUNUS FOR LISTENING TO ME~
AND THANKS SAB FOR THE PICS AND VIDEO~ :)
watched national treasure
hmmm. not bad actually, liked the storyline and interesting events.
i rate it 3.5/5 :)

after movie went for supper and slack around a bit
wait for first train loh. but it was fun lah.
really enjoyed myself that day.

JK AND ME



3 PEACE!!!! LOL

im quite into COSPLAYS recently and so i went to search for some pictures,
seen many incredible and fascinating pictures but i'll just show some of my favorites.
too many later see till eyeballs drop out.
i think cosplays are artistic and interesting.
it can really bring out the imagination and admiration
in people who are interested in animes and comical stuff.
anyways its just a small interest and curiosity of mine lah.
if anyone happens to have any nice pictures on cosplays
can feel free to share it with me. :))

HERES 2 OF MY FAVORITE ANIME SERIES: NARUTO AND BLEACH



THE NARUTO FAMILY




GREEN BEAST OF KONOHA ROCK LEE



I THINK THIS ONE IS CUTE. LITTLE COSPLAY KIDS :)



HATAKE KAKASHI


THE SHARINGAN BROTHERS: UCHIHA ITACHI AND UCHIHA SASUKE

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SABAKU NO GAARA=GAARA OF THE DESERT


THE BLEACH FAMILY



ICHIMARU GIN



COSPLAYS EXTRACTED FROM: FINAL FANTASY:ADVENT CHILDREN







CLOUD STRIFE


TIFA LOCKHEART


VINCENT VALENTINE



THESE ARE JUST SOME OF THE PICTURES OF MY LITTLE INTEREST.
THOSE FASCINATING OUTFITS AND COSTUMES OF DIFFERENT ANIME CHARACTERS.
SO IF ANYONE HAS SOME TO SHARE I WILL BE MORE THAN HAPPY. THANKS. :)

ok im back to blog. been quite busy and lazy also. hehe.
anyways nothing to blog about also. life goes on as usual.
went to mos for ah yang birthday on saturday.
it was damn fun clubbing with them. i just love them. (:
but i feel even more contented at the end of the day.
those who were there know what i mean.
HAHA. PS: ah yang dont sad ok. next time u sure got chance one. tsktsk. (:
if not i let u loh. LOL. jkjk. :P


good friends are to find. and since im so bored now i'll just show some of their faces here.
haha. this shows how much i cherish them ok. (:

A GUY THATS ALWAYS BEEN THERE WHENEVER I NEED HIM.
BUT HIS TOO BUSY NOWADAYS.
HAHA. SUPER FUNNY GUY AND IM PROUD TO HAVE HIM AS MY BRO! (:



MR 'ASK'(AH SIA KIA) WE CALL HIM THAT IS CUZ OF HE IS BORN WITH A SLIVER SPOON
HAHA. ALWAYS LATE..... LIKE ME! THATS WHY WE GET ALONG WELL.
I MISS THOSE TIMES WHEN HE WOULD DRIVE US AROUND FOR DINNER OR SUPPER
AND I ENJOYED TALKING TO HIM. HE ALWAYS HAVE SOLUTIONS TO OUR PROBLEMS
BUT NOW HE IS TOO BUSY WITH HIS GF. THE 2 OF THEM LIKE SUPER GLUE SIAL. LOL.


USED TO BE MY SMOKING KAH KEE. NOW I STAY TOO FAR LAH.
WE HAVE OUR SQUABBLES HERE AND THERE BUT FRIENDS BEAR NO GRUDGES
CHEERS BRO!! (:


XIAO MIGHTY POTATO MARY!! HAHA. ALWAYS THE CENTRE OF
ATTENTION IN OUR GROUP.
AND THE ONLY REASON IS CUZ HE IS EASY TO MAKE FUN OF!
ALWAYS CAUGHT DOING STUPID THINGS.ALWAYS LIKE A KID.
HAHA.BUT WHEN IM WITH HIM I WILL FORGET ALL MY TROUBLES.
HE NEVER FAILS TO MAKE ME LAUGH. TAKE CARE IN NS AND BECOME A MAN PLS!! LOL



I MISS THIS DUDE...! MY BUDDY IS IN NS NOW ):
THOUGH WE DONT MEET UP OFTEN, HE IS ONE DUDE I WILL NEVER FORGET
BEEN THROUGH ALOT WITH HIM. AND I REALLY MISS HIM.. HAHA
NVM I WILL CHOP HIM FIRST WHEN HE BOOKS OUT. HEHE
CANT WAIT TO SEE HOW THIS VAIN POT LOOKS LIKE WITH HIS HEAD SHAVED.LOL



AND I HOPE THIS GOES ON FOREVER..
EACH OF THEM ARE SPECIAL IN THEIR OWN DIFFERENT WAYS.
GLAD TO HAVE U GUYS. THX FOR THE MEMORABLE TIMES. (:

i just wanna get my life back
i dont need anything special
just what normal humans need.
nothing went well ever since my mum passed away
first it was the mental torture,
then it comes to financial problems,
after that my whole family was wrecked
my uncles and aunt fighting over my mum's inheritance.
my dad started lying to me and blah blah blah~~~
all this shit never ends.
its not that i wanna get involved,
but i just got caught into the situation without even knowing.


i just wanna go back study, get a part time job to go with it. thats it.
i don wan a gf to suffer along with me now
instead i prefer doing things alone.
though now im working things are still going wrong
so i just have to make it right.
people that looked down on me, go ahead. i don give a FUCK.
at least i have the courage to take what life is throwing at me.


a new year is arriving and yet somehow i still feel the same.
a new year normally means a new start,
but to me it just means new challenges, obstacles for me to overcome.
Someday, if possible, i would like to leave this place, to a new world
to create my own path of hopes and dreams.
that is my dream, my ambition.
sometimes to win a game u need to play it SMART, instead of playing HARD.
well, everyone will eventually find out the path they seek to walk.
good luck~




mum, i still miss u dearly. visit me in my dreams once in a while, cuz it will surely brighten up my day.

MILKSHAKE

went to MOS for milkshake event.
reached there around 10 and saw many people at the queue already.
then went to get my ambassador chop.
then after that me, steph, vin, jojo, JK and yifan went to plush 7-11 to get some drinks
bo bian bridge that side too many people waiting. LOL.
after drinking we walked back. leg is suan de loh. haha.
by the time we went back it was already 12 and it was crowded!! 0.0
main arena is suffocating loh. u can feel the heat just standing along the pathway.
wa KIA SI LANG -_-"
so we stayed at smoove area. smoove was playing trance!!
YEAH!! shuffle loh shuffle loh! (:
shuffle party man!! haha.



party hard, shuffle harder! HAHA its shuffling time! (:



the crowd was so good everyone just stood there instead of shaking.



BOSS!!! SAY CHEESE!


men and women in black :x


as always i try to act cute but ended up failing... haha



the party was not bad overall.
but i was disappointed in some ways
and im gonna club less now. :)
don ask mi why
its for my own sake.
and im starting work soon.
ciaos~

hihihi. din blog for a week. tired and lazy lah x:
well my weekend was fun oh and let me wish my bro daniel HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!! (:
finally getting closer to adulthood eh. LOL. anytime u wanna go clubbing just tell me bro.
though im quitting clubbing but as long as its ur call everything is ok man! we are love! :)

lets start with friday
it was an outing organized to celebrate daniel's birthday.
around evening time i went down to simpang bedok to meet up with them
its been a long time since i saw those dudes
and im really glad to see them (: they are love loh love loh.
terence, daniel, xiao alvin, wei lun, wei zhen mei, wei jian, jack and ah yang.
they so entertaining as usual. hahaha. always full of crap and thats wad i love about them.
leon met up with u later at bugis.
went there to sing K at a ktv called 'top one'
i also never heard before. hehe. its just opposite mos burger.
the facilities there are good. u can create special lighting effects and create smoke too.
HAHA. everyone was like kept playing with the smoke and creating disco effects
making the room damn smelly. LOL. expected of them lah.
and the service there is good. the waiters are very helpful and friendly (:
i din really sing much though. bad throat nowadays.

sang till 2am and after we walked all the way to cineleisure to catch a movie!!
at first wanna go cathay but close. -_-"
then ah yang kept complaining 'SO FAR, when will reach sia?'
haha. his face expression still remains so cute.
when we reached there was around 3.30am
and the show starts at 4am. so went to play a game of pool till the movie starts.
the movie was called 'GOLDEN COMPASS'
i give it 1.5/5
its a bad show overall ):
everyone ended up sleeping during half of the movie.......
HAHAHA. should have taken pictures of their faces.
and i almost fell asleep too lah so its quite a boring movie.


sorry no pics on that day. we don have the habit ah sorry. hehe

something is wrong
terribly wrong
i cant really describe
what is going on
but something tells me
that something bad is happening
everything is weird
everyone is weird


a sense of emptiness
im too lost to find out more
somehow i feel..........
non existence

im broke~~~!!!
supposedly to get my pay yesterday after work
cause its my last day. but my supervisor told me
the boss can only issue my pay next week.......
then while me and my colleagues were heading home,
one of the bouncers said that his pay was also dragged
for like a few weeks. whats worse is that next week
plush wont be opening AT ALL!
SO HOW THE FUCK AM I GONNA GET MY PAY NEXT WEEK?!
apparently we were discussing this issue and the bouncer
said that the boss is obviously facing budget problems
what kind of problems i dont think i can say it out yet
but now the problem is that i can only get my pay in probably 2 week time
zzzzzz.... oh god how am i gonna survive with $0 and 0 cent?
and its not like i din inform them that im quitting.
i did a week earlier and my supervisor said that she will settle my pay this week
forget it... its not as if i havent been in this situation before
anyway since when things have gone smoothly for me
this is just another small obstacle for me to overcome
but i feel bad though cause i promised some of my friends that i will return them
the money i owed them by this week. when i told them my pay was dragged
they werent very happy about it. im really sorry guys. ):

after hearing about those problems, my colleague decided to quit soon
and he is going back to his previous job and he intend to intro me that job too
cause he says imma helpful guy.. haha.. he says everyone was like bossy
cause he is a new guy and im the only friendly one. thanks thanks.. im touched really.. (:
its just not my personality to be bossy.. cause i know how it feels..
ok lah we were gossiping about some of the staff there lah
HAHA.. but we only talking about facts lah..



sorry to my debtors.. i will try to return all the money soon.. hope u guys understand my situation
and give mi some time..


steph jie: thanks alot jie.. raelly appreciate ur care and concern.. u should take care of yourself too
and strife towards ur dreams.. didi is always here to support u.. love ya jie (:

daniel: i miss u lah!! ur birthday is coming and we shall celebrate.. dont get too stress for ur exams ok
study hard and u will do well.. i believe in ur abilities.. good luck bro (: